Sayang Suhana

2008-05-05T19:42:00.001+08:00

Actually, feeling pretty excited on what to reveal here..but again,...feeling doubtful of its relevance to my beloved blog...Heck!...forget it...gotta pull myself together first...give me another 'moment'...hehe

From the One & Only

2008-05-05T19:40:00.002+08:00

mmm..............
feeling giddy...unsure....confused...
having a 'Monday' moment, I guess...

From the One & Only

My idol from the 80's...

2008-04-30T00:50:00.003+08:00

I remembered I first saw him in 1986...totally blown away with his performance with Michelle Yeoh in 'Royal Warriors'....that gazing look, those fangs, that hair, those suave martial arts moves, really got into me... A protege of Sonny Chiba,..he was THE 'package'...
i thot i lost him since then, as I was so busy with I don't know what...
Little did I know that he got so 'big',..he was practically everywhere...in TV serials, commercials, theatres, more movies,...and it got him all over the world...Hollywood wanted a piece of him too, getting him in THE LAST SAMURAI and the upcoming SUNSHINE...anybody needs a Japanese star?...they'll cast him in..He was such a chameleon, that i failed to recognise him behind all those makeup and disguise meant for his roles...
I remembered that he usually get killed in his movies..be it as a hero, or a villain......and I cried when he 'died' in his role as the legendary Sakamoto Ryoma..brutal killing scene...but he 'died' beautifully and in the most handsome face, thrusting his cute samurai ponytail hairdo into the air...only to be ended with a painful thud on his chest...*aaawwww*
(To put down his whole filmography here would most probably flood my blog...so,..u want to find out more abt him?..go chk him out yrself...hehe)

ANYWAY..22 years later,...i caught him again when I stumbled upon THE PROMISE together with Jang Dong-Gun, Cecilia Chung and Nicholas Tse....beautiful,beautiful love story spun within a web of loyalty and courage..An international superstar in his own right,..with an enormous collection of accolades under his belt,...there's no mistake about it...
Multiple award-winning actor, dancer, singer, martial art expert, love magnet...

He is the one.

The only.

Give it up.

For..

HIROYUKI SANADA.

MY..
HIROYUKI SANADA..

P.S.
(Don't worry Stephen Chow, u are STILL my idol too...from HK,that is..)

Saturday Nite Fever

2008-03-16T23:55:00.003+08:00

nope....not the movie...but the fever itself....fever from Thurs nite to be exact...went up and down,goes on and off ..faster than a roller coaster ride....Doctor?...no need...it'll go away...maybe it's due to the wet weather that we've been having plus the fatigue that i had lately. Can't keep complaining though.. Hujan Rahmat...A gift from God.Still,..felt miserable, with the turn of 'events' that happened. It was quite a week for me. However, I chose not to divulge any. Let's just say, behind every dark cloud lies a silver lining and I believe and I DO WANT to believe that I will get right through this 'rain' and shall wait for the sunshine all over again..and for us to get that first glimpse of sunrise, we should brace ourself for the darkest state of the sky before the rising of dawn...(dalam tu makna nya ..)

Lights, Camera, Action!

2008-03-12T12:30:00.004+08:00

This morning, while surfing, listened to Ria 89.7FM and there was this segment called "ACTION" by Hafeez Glamour. Found out that its only on every Wed where callers are encouraged to participate by immitating/re-enact a scene from well-remembered films eg. P Ramlee films and etc.. Then callers will call-in to vote for their favourite and the winner will get to request for their fave song.(is that all?)..so before it went on air, they played this montage of previous participants with their acting.. i broke a smile and waited for the 1st participant. Then this Mbak called in to act out a scene from some Indon Sinetron.(in which I don't know of).I can't relate to anything that the MBak said..maybe its becuz I don't know the sinetron in which she re-enacted..and so Hafeez waited for another caller..Few minutes later,..there's still none...Guess what?..I picked up the fone and dialled in. (What on EARTH was I thinking!)..and it was immediately answered!..surprise2..he got my particulars and told him that ANA wud be doing a scene from 'MASAM MASAM MANIS'

..then,...while waiting for his que, i managed to msg hub who's at his office and asked him to tune in..then,..i was on air...blah..blah..blah...and got the most votes!..hehe..as for the song?...mmm..what else but my fave KEKASIH GELAPKU....(for you, sayang!)
Next stop,..want to do scenes from other P Ramlee films...camera ready?...ACTION!

Should I ..Shouldn't I...

2008-03-12T09:14:00.002+08:00

Mmmm...recently procrastinating on whether should i start another blog specially for my other passion - FOOD...initially, I started this one as an avenue to share my food binge with all..but then it turned personal and the rest is...well...history. I know it's not THAT difficult but the problem is,..I have to dig back those pix i had been keeping and post them in..but..hehe, the REAL reason is - lazy...then again, I'll try..so, I guess,I'll go into construction now..

Apple Bread Pudding Muffin

2008-02-17T23:27:00.005+08:00

made these the other day..(forgotten when was that)..but dont have the time to post..well,..here it is,..as explained by the pics.. I managed to get abt 48 minis and it was all gobbled up within an hour..mmmmm..ENJOY!

Crush of 1976

2008-02-17T09:52:00.005+08:00

Previously i mentioned abt the 1976 Sayang Anakku Sayang. Did any of u remember this movie?..Had a crush on Aziz M Osman (the eldest brother) at that time.. here's a clip..

To listen, u have to stop the audio on my pink ipod on the top right hand corner of this page..

Ngo Oi Lei !..(find a cantonese friend to translate this)

2008-02-17T08:48:00.007+08:00

1st..i must say that i didn't sleep well..hv been up since 3am plus, i think...don't ask me why..coz i don't know..my damn eyes just wouldn't shut and my mind keep venturing into a horizon-less realm...

anyway,..what i'm about to say will make the man of my life wanna puke..but i'm gonna say it anyway... i love Stephen Chow..since 1983... no time to tell it all but yesterday nite i managed to watch his latest flick, CJ7..

i don't wanna waste time writing up the synopsis of the movie. Neither do i want to be a spoiler. What i'm interested to say is that it made me laugh till i wanna pee,...AND at the same time,...made my heart palpate to hold back my tears...yes,..it made me laugh and cry at the same time..and i could only do that thru his movie,...besides the 70s "Sayang Anakku Sayang"..

it made me marvel at the talented young boy who played the role of his son. Where on earth did they discover him from?..Great job...An award for him, perhaps? I wouldn't wanna compromise about Stephen's acting. He was superb - as always. At 46, he still charms me with his silver grey streaked hair and that boyish look on his face is now the gaze of a much mature man, in which his nickname now in the industry is "Grandmaster" - a title he's most deserving to don.

the plot was SO simple, it will pass the minds of ordinary folks as just another movie...but for a mind like mine - it went deep.
It screamed the essence of the bond between father and son, integrity, honour, affection, trust and love.....camouflaged in a sci-fi, heavily-CGIed, animated cover story

Many of u would associate Stephen as the face of Comedy but he's also a gifted serious actor (check out his accolades comprising of best actor and director)...and therefore, i love him not just because he made me laugh,..but also because he can crumble me down to my last tear..all in that cute old 'kemek' face..

i wanted to cry real loud in one particular scene but held back, coz i knew i wud be mocked at..i dun get it...people who actually shed tears in movies are continuously being labelled and judged as super sensitive and are showered with mockings and jeers...Why?..just because we happen to HAVE a heart?..Come on...that's why we have tear ducts, people!..(made me remember my Ayah)

Anyways..i seriously think that this movie is a good one, if not the best. It didn't take a whole village of actors to sum up a sobbing scene - all it took was a young son, his father, and a WHOLE lot of love...

To all Stephen Chow fans - u will enjoy this one, just like u did the rest..

Seng Zhai, ngo oi lei!!

Oh yes...I WANT THAT LITTLE GREEN PET !!

2008-02-15T00:52:00.001+08:00

Had a tough day today...

I'm feeling sad...very, very sad..

The Quest for Buah Kana..

2008-02-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

Dear Julia...

kalau u cakap buah tu easily available near yr workplace,..dat's good....sebab it's quite hard to find them here... seriously kena cari kat tempat kedai runcit yang agak classic lagi ancient...jangan kata buah kana,...asam asin yang kaler merah tu kalau dapat,...mesti kena lenyek kat bibir...dulu time kecik2,..selalu lumur kat bibir...konon nak rasa feeling pakai lipstick...tenyeh macam tenyeh sentil!..hehe..

kat sini pun Ju,...kalau ada asam asin ni,...time raya cina banyak la...sebab i pun tak tau ape yg dorang ni feast on during their lunar new year..kita lain la...anything from A - Z,...u name it, we eat it...masam, manis, pedas, tawar,...semua ada...segala binatang laut, binatang darat,..sayur mayur,...mesti singgah perut...

akak ni bukan ape...(alamak...cakap pasal akak ni macam terasa diri ni macam Akak Ogy....dia punya AKAK tu mesti nak kasi sengau kat idung sikit..hehe)

'A..kak ni,...suka reminisce barang2 lama...bukan la akak ni otai sangat...i'm just matured and childish at the same time...(mak ai...puji diri sendiri)..but sometimes,..the old stuff are only remembered when they're gone...

so,...kadang2,..barang2 like these can actually keep us glued to our past before proceeding to the future...

alamak, Ju...kalau Ju nak panggil Akak,...i dun mind...but i think i'd just skip that whenever i address myself eh?...i'll just stick to..I / ME / AKU ...

bukan ape,...panggilan akak ni,..teringaaat pada seorang yg i kenal...negatif la...
alaa..tak kisah la..apa2 pun,...it doesn't matter...what matters most,...we stay in touch...or shud i say "networking"...hehe..

Nite.

Night at the movies..

2008-02-08T02:31:00.000+08:00

biler aku nak tido ni...

niat di hati konon nak tido... tapi mata ni makin tebeliak pulak....

Suddenly have this craving to watch Stephen Chow's latest CJ7...sambil makan kuaci belang-belang dengan buah kana...aku pilih kuaci belang-belang pasal yg kuaci itam tu, aku tak suka...gigit, gigit, pecah...gigit, gigit,..pecah..leceh ah...bila nak game..kuaci dia pun kudut..tipis je..kalau yang belang-belang ni, ada body sikit.......paling best kalau dapat tengok in those drive-in theatres...macam zaman 60s kat US..watching movies in the open, under the nite stars...cuma popcorn aku kena tukar dengan kampung snacks...kuaci belang-belang dengan buah kana...untung nasib, dapat kacang kuda rebus pun bole la...lagi power, kalau ada buah berangan...Fuh!...terangkat!...

or maybe cry myself to sleep by watching What's eating Gilbert Grape...aah..korang tak tau kan,..cerita ape tu..tak tau takpe...janji aku sorang tau...it has Johnny Depp and Leo DiCaprio in his Oscar nominated role... to be watched only by those who appreciate good acting...like me...hehe

mmm...ngomong-ngomong....mana nak cari buah kana sekarang ni eh...yg packaging dia ada 3 biji buah kana wrapped in paper tipis,abey tu kena pintal...simple,..murah,..practical,...tapi biji dia ada sikit tajam kat ujung dia...kalau time isap-isap, tekena lidah,..adoi...geram punya pasal,...ptuih!..kena ludah...tu yang syok tu..

aku teringat zaman dolu2...zaman takde duit nak tengok wayang,....tiket pakai tiket daun...kepada sape yg panjat pokok time tu,...tau la...

sekarang ni,..tgk wayang tak macam dulu la...so commercial...tiket pun punya lah mahal..sampai $10 setengah..bole buat belanja pasar beb...

teringat in 1991 aku nak sangat tengok cerita Jackie Chan ..punya kalang kabut beli tiket,...sekali masuk dah gelap...wah,..dapat duduk apa lagi...excited giler la...sekali bukak cerita,...tau2...cerita Thailand!..rupa2nya kitorang salah lineup...cerita black-magic pulak tu!.dah la cakap thailand...subtitle pun subtitle cina...mati idup balik aku tak faham jalan cerita..low-budget punya effects pulak tu....apa nak buat...nak tak nak tengok aje la dengan hati yg menyumpah macam nak rak...yg macam taik nya,...satu jam aje!...punya la fed up...apa2 pun,...bukan salah aku...yg salah,...si tukang beli la...

sekarang ni dah pukul tiga pagi...kalau p ramlee masih ada, mesti dia dah nyanyi kan aku suruh tido...ini la akibatnya minum kopi malam2 ari...sama ada minat nak tengok movies in yr cable tv...

ape2 pun,...the show must go on.....

Ana....tido, na.......

Hello Kelat & Julia

2008-02-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

i'd like to dedicate a warm welcome shout out to Kelat and Julia,...
Thank u for stumbling in and made contact with me...wud u both please elaborate more on yourselves?...may we have a progressive correspondence...

*big smile*

Biar Pecah Di Perut

2008-02-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

alamak....selang beberapa minit berfikir,...my mind gave up...looking back, i left my blog somewhere in September...lama tu...bulan puasa...oohh...bulan puasa,...hari raya,...cuti sekolah,...and so on....banyak cerita yang berkontrovesi dan tak kurang juga ada yang berprestasi...yang mana nak...tapi, macam dah lupa ah...takpe la..maybe i shud just start from where I had an operation to remove my appendix and another extended 2 inches more of my colon.. Sebelum tu, somewhere in December,...dah sakit la...sakit ni jangan cakap la..tak tau nak cakap exactly from when..semuanya bercampur aduk..dah lama...tapi i am a sceptical person,..not to mention super degil..bila sakit,..tahan...dah tak sakit,..buat bodoh...but it all came to a halt when i thot the pain was too much to bear and so i went to the hospital and ...blah..blah..blah...the rest is history....

wah...time kat hospital,..time muka macam daging tak empuk,...time tu lah orang datang...nak cakap tak welcome tak baik...orang besar ati nak melawat,..aku ni sebuk dengan benda2 yang tak necessary..yg tak best,..tak dapat makan,..biasalah,..perut kena tebuk in 4 places,..throat penuh dengan ulcer after being lacerated by the tube yg macam tube washing machine, which was being forced down my windpipe during the op. Aku tak dpt makan takpe la...orang yg datang ni yang makan macam kenduri kat ward tu..Fuh!..punye jealous!...tapi, terima kasih kepada family,friends,Shirin,Lynn, Sally...thanks so much...but the best part, sedara mara patient2 kat situ ingatkan aku ni operate beranak..ape dah...ade jugak satu org tanya aku.."oh..u had a baby girl, izit?"..pasal ape tau?...pasal dia ternampak aku punya teddy bear colour pink yang aku peluk macam baby tua...i'm a teddy lover...so Shirin & Lynn bought me one as a get well soon gift...I named it RUSS..(pronounced as Ras)..pasal ape aku pilih nama tu,..jgn di tanya...its face just screamed that name to me...cute tau...nanti aku taruk dia punya pic kat sini...

All in all,..Sally banyak tolong aku..Ros pun sama...thanks for all yr help in getting me up on my feet again, until last week,...where my pusat 'bocor'..doctor cakap i did not get it healed properly..lasak sangat...ape tak...baru balik hospital dah nak buat macam2..anyway,...got it fixed and i'm recuperating all over again..

Lagi satu,..i received lots of recommendations for easy and quick home remedies yg konon nya menjanjikan yg terbaik...with all due respect,..terima kasih kepada semua yg berniat baik untuk melihat aku sihat semula...dari pada kena minum air rebusan biji kelentit kering (sumpah!...bukan aku yg cakap,...orang yg jual tu yg cakap ini nama dia..some sort of belimbing bukit ke ape ntah ...),...kepada buah pala,...ke air rebusan biji kani,..dan lain2 lagi....but nothing prepared me for the worst tasting thing that my tongue had ever tasted.....aku kena minum...

PATI IKAN HARUAN GINSENG AMERIKA ..POLLENEY!!!..

Ya Allah!!!...punya seksa,..aku tak tahan dia punya hanyir la...cuma 70ml, tapi nak minum..nak kena upah dengan yakult to wash it down,...tak bole sekali togok...aku telan in 5 small, tortured, togokan...1st time minum,...nangis...

my salute to all the people yang berani makan obat tradisional...as for me,...memang tak guna...kalau minum pun,..kerana terpaksa...tapi apa2 pun,....cheers to good health!!...i hope i'll never have to minum this pati ...ever again..

Dah 2008....!!

2008-02-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

adoi....where have i been all these while ya...

tau2...dah Feb 2008....alamak..macam missing in action,..ngalahkan orang yang gi melawat bulan pulak...the time lapse/gap was so large,..ingatkan dah nak bungkus aje this blog site...tapi,..tau2..ada tamu singgah,...terus tak jadi...tiba2 semangat di dada terasa dibakar semula...semarak semacam....InsyaAllah,..ingat nak teruskan aje lah blog nie...ada orang baca ke, takde ke, takpe lah...i'm sure if as long as i have something to tell,...then there'll always be someone ,somewhere to accidentally stumble and read my postings....

eemmm...ape nak cerita dulu eh...cerita/ kejadian tu amatlah lah membuak2 banyak nya...terasa macam satu2 tu berlumba2 nak keluar dulu...nanti ...give me a minute..maybe i shud start from where i last ended....stay tuned...coz Suhana might just be back!..

My Chubby-Jac

2007-09-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

well...call me childish..but hey..there's a kid in every one of us..

Just wanna introduce you to my beloved Chubby, a birthday gift to me by my girlz last year..he's got a super cute boncet tummy and very cute 'sleeping tiger' eyes....

and here's Jac-Jac.....I got it when we bought the McDonalds' meal sometime ago when The Incredibles hit the theatres ..it's sooo cute, I decided that it shall stay with me...hehe..

A Belated Teachers' Day

2007-09-26T09:08:00.000+08:00

hi...
after lots of thots,I finally decided to post something belated..in a way, I hutang gambar dgn khaziah..

anyway,..we celebrated Teacher's Day 2007 with a treat from Khaziah. Where?..Dinner at Secret Recipe @IMM.I actually thot of somewhere nearer, like Swensen's or something but she insisted that we go to a place where I've never tried the food before..She convincingly said that the food there's nice, so I agreed. Again, June can't go,so there's only me , Ros ,Sally, and Khaziah herself.

Went there by cab,and sat ourselves in a corner up on a raised platform.

We took sometime to order as all three of us have not been there before and I wanted to have something a little different. For drinks, I ordered Iced Lemon Tea Float, Sally had Watermelon Juice, Khaziah had Kasturi Apple Lime Punch or something like that, while Ros had 7-up with lemon, I think...forgot laa...

the funny thing was that they were not allowed to taste their orders b4 I had a chance to take a shot at them with my cam.Muka satu2 boring pasal tak boleh minum dulu especially Khaziah yang da haus tu..

Then, we ordered our food..
I had Chicken Cordon Bleu. I think it's some chicken breast stuffed with turkey ham and cheese served with slaw and fries. I thot the combination would taste crazy but it was sedap giler!..hehe..pandainya aku pilih!

when u split it open,....fuuhh!..heaven...

Khaziah had baked fish with lobster sauce..but something happened and it was served with pesto sauce instead...I kecek her sikit...it was delish!..but she was sooo full from the earlier Teachers' Day Lunch that she had - that she couldn't take that much anymore...so I kecek lagi laa..sedap..the fish taste best when it was still hot, meaning - u gotta devour it as soon as they lay it down in front of u..but I find the side bun not matching enough to go with the dish..and it looked more like a raw egg...don't u think?...but I ate it anyway,hehe..

Ros pulak, ordered Fish n Chips, complete with soup of the day and the bun which looked like raw egg...BUT...they forgot the lemon!...incomplete, man!...
and the vege?...mmmm I prefer mine to come with carrots and broccoli..tapi..takpe la...ini Ros punya..

Sally had ...alamak I forgot la...sumpah!...here's the photo,anyway...i think it's chicken ke ape ntah...u figure..

I ordered Caesar's Salad when I thot that we do not have enough vege on our plates.
I asked the waitress(who don't seem local)about the dressings that they have - I would love to have Ranch dressing to go with that but the waitress don't seem to understand the words that came out of my mouth.So I spared her the agony and just asked for some Thousand Island instead..I love the croutons(toasted bread cubes) but the sprinkle of turkey ham bits was a bit too extravagant,though..

We chatted and gossiped through the meal , laughed, got serious, laughed again,...and oh..we each received an orchid bouquet and a gift from Khaziah & Munirah.

When I noticed that I gulped down my Ice Lemon Tea Float too soon, I asked for their house mineral water,costing 50cents a bottle.

Then,I got greedy and asked for dessert. Everybody else were stuffed except me...I mean,..I gotta have their house special,right?..Khaziah wanted Iced Mocha or something like that...I asked for a Cuppucino and the famous Banana Chocolate Cake.

I asked yang lain nak tak sikit...Dorang tanak - bukan I tak tanya - so ape lagi, I baham sorang la...alamak....sedap....memang sedap...so kita berborak lagi sampai....

kita dah tak bole makan lagi, dan ...

cake pun lat-lat tinggal ini aje...
dah kenyang semua,...Khaziah generously treated me to 2 more slices of the cake that I had, to be given to my 2 girls at home.Thnks, sis.
So,bila kita look around, kita je yang masih dok lekat kat resto tu, dorang pun da nak tutup, we decided to go off pasal Abg Kareem, hero nya si Ros pun dah nak pick up dia.Kita pun jalan to the taxi stand. Orang punya la ramai, macam nak line up Hello Kitty.Ntah tak semena-mena, I asked the group of giggling chinese girls infront of us to snap us this pic..bukan ape..konon2 bukti that we had a girls' nite out kat IMM.

Kaki sampai sakit tunggu, we decided to give them some credit too. Hitam,yang kasut macam kasut my hubby tu kaki Khaziah, Nampak jari yang macam nak pegi pasar tu kaki Sally,yang lonjong macam kuih lopes tinggal nak siram gula melaka tu kaki Ros, dan saya yang putih tu la...yang dah nak tanggal tu...

hai...tunggu punya tunggu teksi,tak gerak2 kita punya q-line.Sekali,hero Ros datang macam mat rempit. Bila Ros dah balik, aku step muka ceria konon2 pujuk nasib sendiri tunggu teksi yang tak sampai2.

Last2, I call hubby who's still in his office at Ngee Ann Poly to come and fetch us. It was a good 20 mins b4 he came.
Felt tired, but this time,....kenyang...time pegi Delifrance kemarin,tak kenyang...hehe
Anyway, thanks AGAIN Zie,...for the sumptuous treat.
That was a great nite and u know it!

Pointing the finger..

2007-09-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

I have not been updating the blog,..yes, I know...it's starting to collect dust ..but then again,..the latest thing that happened to me is....
well..I accidentally sliced off a good part of my left index tip,just to the right of the nail....with what?..a PENKNIFE....trying to do what?....trying to exact off the corners of an artwork with one good precision cut...but the ruler that I leaned against the blade began to slide on the rather slippery paper. I didn't manage to stop my right hand from knifing with one strong stroke...so off goes a good chunk of my flesh...and I bled profusely. I bled so much (non-stop) that I had to go to the A&E. Brought along the piece of flesh in the hope that they could stitch it back...but due to the time it took for me to decide to go to hsptl,the tissue was already dead. So,they said that all they could do was to reconstruct it with grafting to promote tissue re-growth.The worst part?I gotta go there every 2 days for them to change the dressing(in which the wound is still bleeding underneath the layers of netting and bandage) and for them to monitor the tissue growth. So, I am now learning to do stuff with one finger less....sounds odd...but there are times when I felt rather difficult going about doing chores,especially cleaning myself. Also,it made me realise that we do need every limb that God had created for us as each of them REALLY does serve a purpose.It's a long road to recovery but I can't wait to point the finger again!...hehe

oh yes....I hope this is my excuse for not updating that often...typing this alone is killing me....had to narrow down my energy to just 2 fingers....Argh!!

2007-09-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Where's Suhana?

2007-09-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

helo, helo, helo....

adoi....lama sungguh rasanya tak masuk....ntah knape ntah...padahal banyak nak cakap...tapi,...tak cakap2...bila dah accumulate gini,...baru lah pedih nak type...apa nak cerita dulu eh...banyak nie..

ok mula2,..let me post some food pics first...i made these some time ago,..but only have the time to upload it now..
so,..these were what u missed...

2007-07-20T14:53:00.001+08:00

of course ,..stuff happened since my last update but really... no mood to talk abt any of it...just the usual rendition of tears and laughter...
but something worth mentioning happened on one Saturday,where I went to Ira's sch. She was a subject prize winner for English in the Express Stream for last year.Besides being a prize giving day, the sch was also celebrating its 30th Anniversary. We were supposed to be seated in the hall by 7.40am but then again, SOMETHING happened to spoil the morning.She went off to sch 1st to get ready for her Band Performance.In the meantime, we got ready.Suddenly,I got cramps and was not able to - I repeat - not able to even walk. So frustrated.I told myself I'm not gonna miss this for anything,including the damn cramp.But seriously,the pain deteriorated and I gotta "rest" for a while..b4 u know it,...we were running late.I told myself that even if I have to fake a face,I'm really gonna drag myself there.Upon reaching the sch,I literally rushed to the hall, just in time to see that Ira HAD ALREADY RECEIVED HER PRIZE!....AARRGGHHH!!!!!
U have no idea how frustrated I was. If only. If only I had reached there about a few mins earlier, I would have witnessed her big moment. Altho this was not her 1st time, I have always made a point to be there when my girls went up to any stage to receive any prize of any form.But this was the 1st time I missed it! I cursed myself for it.Felt so apologetic to her but she gave me a rather forgiving look from her seat.Felt like giving myself and hub a punch. (Well, I gotta share/shift the blame on somebody, shouldn't I?)
But then, its ok..most important,I was and am still proud of her. Went about the sch to savour what the sch had put up for the day. Shows, extravaganzas, games stalls, exhibits - u name it...but the best one has got to be the food that has been catered for everyone.There For the parents, ours was located on the 3rd flr and I think I was certainly the 1st to dig in because obviously,when I opened the 1st buffet tray, it was still untouched!...seriously, the food was goooooooooooddd!!!..there was so much food,I now remembered that I forgot to eat some of them!..hehe...Anyway,lots of Kudos to the sch and the caterer : delihubcatering.com.sg
Halal lah.... The embarrassing part? Me and adik tried to smuggle some delicious éclairs but they got squashed in my bag and therefore, I gotta throw them...so sayang...dolat agaknya...but then again,kita bukan curi apa...kan memang diberi makan kan?..

Cardiac Call

2007-07-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

5th July

Went for chk up today.
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too bored to comment on it.
Que sera sera.
Whatever will be, will be....

Oh God..

2007-07-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

3rd July...

Went to melawat.
I lost another relative younger than me today.Pity.
Went from late morning to evening.
I felt drained....really drained....
Didn't eat the whole day.Just had a bottle of mineral water.Legs go wobbly after hours of waiting.After the funeral,the reality checked in. Felt like passing out on the way back.
Oh....by the way, I was alone. So alone. So lonely.
Do u know what is the feeling of being lonely?...
Horrendous....

Festival of Ideas

2007-07-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Yet another time lapse....

Anyway,...before the start of the new Semester,..I was sent to MOE for the 2008 ExcelFest focus group discussion on how to further improve and enhance next year's festival.Was thrilled to share new ideas and we had a good brainstorming session.My team came up with a pretty good slogan fit enough to be considered by the Exco. The Green Apples (that was what we call ourselves)comprised of myself as the Group Leader, Georgina as the Table Host, and members Joan, Sheila, Elizabeth and Nurul. The best moment for me was when my team was saved for last and while giving the speech during my presentation, the i-studio which housed around 40 of us, roared with supportive applause. We were only given 10mins to draft our ideas but I took a max of 25 to deliver my speech. Members from the other teams stopped me in my tracks to compliment our points.It took about 2 and a half hours for the whole session to wrap up,in which refreshments were provided but I did not take a single bite...oh well,..I'm not missing it..

Took some lame pictures along the way,coz we were in a hurry to finish the given tasks.When I emailed the pics to the rest of them, Elizabeth called me "Brainy"...reminds me of one of the Smurfs with that big, black glasses over his blue face...hehe..
All in all,..had a great time and our team proved to stand out among the rest when we came up with : "ASPIRE TO INSPIRE"

*cheers*

Bon Joir!, Madamoisalle...

2007-06-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

Had a meeting in school about TB. Finished quite late but then, Cikgu Khaziah wanted to 'wind down'...so we went to JP for dinner...Mula2 ingat nak makan kat Banquet aje but then ntah sape ntah yg dah recommend Delifrance..so we went there.Plus Ros and Sally. Cikgu bayar in the end...tak puas ah...with that amount, bole makan raya cina kat Banquet...Delifrance punya serving portion punya sikit....anjing tengok pun fed up tak kenyang...tapi bukan salah cikgu...salahnya Delifrance...kasi setotet let gitu,taruk harga mahal nak mampos,..tapi sikit nak mampos jugak...ah ngkau...fed up aku...anyway,...i had a chicken mayo sandwich,mushroom soup,and cappucino..nampak macam banyak ...tapi tak sangat...mula2 ingat nak expresso...tapi bila dah sampai, tekejut beruk bila tengok cawan dia..punya lah kecik...agaknya lipas nak kencing pun, tak muat...terus tak tunggu...tukar order...makanan dia tak worth it la....too ex for something very little...tapi the nite was good becoz kita ngumpat about the meeting...berbakul umpat...sebab tu tak kenyang...tak berkat agaknya...hehe..
my sandwich
but the ambience was good la...for umpat-mengumpat...hehe
Me tengah on the line, with Ros
Sally and Khaziah
My cuppa with a little cookie...satu kali telan aje...buang masa..
Brownie...sedap, but too sweet...bole kencing manis potong kaki punya
Had some bread pudding for dessert too, with vanilla ice-cream...tapi dorang bodoh ah...tak tau makan...nasib baik dah kenyang...kalau tak, dengan lampu France tu sekali aku kebas...hehe
Anyway,...Ros paid with her card but Khaziah bayar dia balik with cash...kira2 dia belanja la....Thanks so much, Zie....teruk la I ni...orang dah belanja pun nak kutuk lagi...tapi takpe la...dia pun kutuk ape...

Fast Food

2007-06-30T01:49:00.001+08:00

believe it or not, this dinner was done in a record-breaking 20 mins.Chopping and stir fry simultaneously. Terror nya gue!...hehe

Hungry?

2007-06-30T00:46:00.001+08:00

June holidays...
In short,...I did nothing...except it was a month of check-ups, check-ups and more check-ups for my in-laws...we siblings had a rotating roster to send them to and fro...A very boring month...Thot of doing a spring cleaning but oh...what the heck...kids had camp, supplementary classes, and stuff like that and therefore we had no quality time outside,..a.k.a holidays...so I just brought them to JP to shop for some garbs and stuff...and that's abt it...pretty sad but the kids understand..

Me looking bored...Back off my Mocha!

Had some lousy days with my health...but I'm getting on...

well,...did a bit of stuff in the kitchen. Got the kids to get messy.
drop teaspoonfulls of cookie dough onto baking sheet
into an oven @ 175 deg. c.
cool them on a wire rack
heavenly beautiful chewy double choco chunk cookies...

made some Roti John yg sedap nak mampos...hehe...
take some broccoli, yellow courgettes, carrots and lemon
some dory fillets
coat with tempura batter and deep fry
a dollop of tartare sauce (or add chopped capers/gherkins to some mayo)and u got yrself a set of my all-time fave = fish & chips

spread some garlic-herbed-butter onto slices of french baguettes,wrap in foil and grilled
skewer shrimps that are marinated in lemon juice + my secret self-made marinade
grill shrimps in oven. Grill some chicken marinated in the same marinade too.
after about 20 mins or so, this is what u get
with some veggie, u got yrself a pretty filling meal

2007-06-30T00:02:00.001+08:00

oh..I remembered...19th May..I was supposed to celebrate Mothers' Day. It was also the month where we celebrate birthday Boy, Ira, Haris, and entah sape lagi...semuanya birthday bulan May. It was also the month of the year that I go broke becoz we are supposed to give all the anak2 sedara punya birthday gift..secara serentak..tak kira dorang punya birthday bulan berapa,..termasuk si Boy yang dah tua bangka tu....adoi...bankrupt giler...walaupun semuanya 9, PLUS ,..my mum punya, dah kira 10...takkan sorang satu hadiah $9.90 punya value ajekan?....apa2 pun,...jgn cakap kocek koyak,..ATM card pun bole retak seribu...tapi,...jgn cakap macam tu ana,...hati mesti ihklas.

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...we had dinner at a buffet restaurant in Tampines Mall.Actually,...a lot happened..but I'll just say it was a really damn good restaurant with an equal standard of good food. Althought it was supposed to be a happy nite for me, it ended drastically dramatic,...but hub managed to coax me and calm my sulking...the only thing that kept me happy was the smiles on my girls' faces when they got their presents, adik's star-brite eyes when we bought her a frappucino from Starbuck's on our way home and the good food of the resto....malas nak cakap banyak2...

2007-06-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

mmm....
time to update....i hate to do this when u're being slapped with a time lapse of over a month!...ANYWAY.....
don't really remember much what really happened in May and June...
besides going to anak June punya birthday,...alamak...cakap pasal ni,..I'm not sure what happened...suddenly,..the rest of us macam nak celebrate Earth Day pulak...Everyone wore green!...
except for June..dono why she wore a grey number,but takpelah..the best part,...it was TOTALLY unplanned..sumpah!

Tickets, please....

2007-06-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

it was May Day and instead of basking the holiday watching tv, we went to CCK to have a family meeting....which resulted in me organising a family nite out for a movie and a bowling session for the following Saturday, 5th May. Everyone was excited as we decided to watch 'Jangan Pandang Belakang'. After calculating the expenses and doing some homework, it was decided that we will be watching the 9.30pm show @ GV Marina,with the bowling alley conveniently located right next to it. We rented a van from kawan Senah to accomodate the Jurong West lot and the Bukit Panjang pair.Hubby drove us. Went bowling 1st b4 catching the show

Aku tak main...takde form la...budak2 je yg rembat..target kat longkang.. Nenen pun sama...mula2 cakap berapi-api...cakap macam champion...ngalahkan Shalin Zulkifli....tapi main macam amateur je...masuk longkang jugak...

Yg kelakarnya, semua pakai baju macam nak pergi Cameron Highland. Satu2 nampak macam orang demam.Pakai sweater

Keluarga Kak Ju also joined us..so sweet of her...

tapi when its time to go in, semua macam dah tak sabar...kelakar bila Tipah pegi kencing. Tickets are with her...meanwhile, semua muka dah senget...takut ketinggalan the intro..satu2 merungut...mana tiket? sape pegang tiket?..bila dah masuk, padan muka kita pasal kena tengok ebetais (advertisement)nak dekat setengah jam...wayang belum start,..makanan dah nak abis...hehe.. We accomodated about 30 seats. Tapi bila semua dah berkobar2 nak seramkan diri sendiri by watching that show, suara spoiler si UL, Jamal, Jai, dan beberapa org lagi buat aku macam nak sumbat mulut satu2 dgn popcorn yg dah kebanyakkannya dah bertaburan atas lantai. Potong steam orang je. I'm sure a lot of the other movie-goers pun bingit dgn suara2 spoiler ni tapi atas dasar our big number, they just kept quiet.Geramnya simpan dalam ati je. Ape ke taknya...orang dah takut2 nak tutup mata, dorang buat kelakar...kuat pulak tu..ape sajer..Bukan aper...orang semua dah penat2 fork out $9.50 for the thrill, and even more for the popcorn, tiba2 datang satu group of family ni,..buat huru hara satu panggung...hai..buat malu kampeni je...nasib korang la..
tapi..ape2 pun,..fun jugak la..lepas tgk wayang, we went to Bt Timah to have a late nite supper at Al-Ameen ke ape agaknya gitu la...balik nak dekat 3 pagi...macam orang baru balik dangdut la.....hehe
lepas dat nite,...I fell sick...again...
haiz...

tapi...that was a good nite...a very good family nite out...

2007-06-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

to be frank,...i cannot recall what are the things that really happened in a chronological order....most of the highlight has been stolen by my mum-in-law, in which she was admitted in and out of the hospital for a series of ......let me see....excessive vomitting, a fractured wrist, excessive vomitting again,...and again,i wud be at the front seat of the ambulance,and the rest of us wud be spending 2 days and 1 nite @ the A & E,compliments from the hospital...
For some reason, she wud always be sent around either before maghrib,or after that...and we wud only go home in the wee hours of the following morning...followed with another series of outpatient appointments....
Not to be outdone is father-in-law,who also went for a surgery to remove a rather hyperactive sebaceous gland that grew along his spine.But it was quite superficial.And he's doing fine...he was instructed by the doctor not to work anymore...and that was his final wake up call and is hereby , FINALLY , out of a job. I wish him a fast recovery and a joyous 2nd retirement.
As for me,...mm..i gotta go 4 a heart scan in July. In the meantime,highly administered to take anti-coagulants,also known as blood thinners, muscle-relaxing tabs,and the ever dreadful nitrate that crushes my brain every time i gotta take it.Major headache.But its part of the side effects and I'm keeping my hopes and prayers up high for a very favourable result.I can do this. I WILL get better and I CERTAINLY can.Still,...I hate the medicines...urgh!...hari2 makan, rasa macam kena telan kapur barus!
Anyway,..say a little prayer for me to get well soon...(insya Allah)

The Reunion

2007-06-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

On Saturday,14th April, Nurshirin finally managed to coax me into attending my 1st ever high school reunion.Actually,my schoolmates have been begging for my response via email....they emailed me everything but I responded with nothing...why?...don't ask...i just don't feel like it...not trying to act snobbish but i kind of felt embarrased in exposing myself after all these years...err...let me rephrase that...not exposing, but rather..presenting myself ...maklumlah,...orang makan roti, kita makan ibu roti...bila dah gebu,...dah tak tau macam mana nak bawak diri...hehe...

ANYWAY - mula2 i dowan to go..but after looking at the long list of enthusiastic ex-school members who are confirming their attendance,plus,with the info of their marital status and their multiplying families,PLUS,i felt bored that day,I finally took the plunge and went...WITHOUT my husband and the kids..hubby had studio work and the kids had their own show to catch.So off I went to Aloha Bungalow 9 @ Pasir Ris. Was welcomed with the warmest hugs and cheers and loads of shrieks..of joy..

I cried in my heart when our Mami/Organiser Norain Rafie, pasted all the photos of us back in the good old days of the 80s on the wall perpendicular to the buffet.Spent hours oggling at the photos in which I looked so damn 'jambu'.hehe...takde sape nak puji,so puji diri sendiri la....tak salah ape...bukan curi barang sape2 kan...Met up with Linda Bedak Yardley skrg dah kurus ,Rasuati is now known as Ramizah,Sarina Rawi yg dari dulu sampai sekarang cakapnya masih macam tu,Aidah pun tak byk berubah,Rosmi lagi tak berubah,Zarina makin mamamia,and ramai lagi..sori girls...kalau I tak include yr name,it doesn't mean that I tak acknowledge u....As 4 the guys,...Kader yg sekarang dah botak tapi masih giler2,Rosli Ayam Belanda yang skrg macam Superstar Rajnikanth ..kira hero keling lah...Faizal Mahfuz aka Ketam Busuk yg masih tak kawin2...Azhar Kecik yg sekarang dah tinggi,..Khairi Rohani yg sekarang dah jadi tauke sushi,..Zaidi Jambul yg sampai skrg masih maintain dia punya vanity..Zaidi Rosni yg skrg macam tertinggal gigi..Fahmi Sepaktakraw yg sekarang masih tebal gusi..adoi...macam2 orang la...pendek kata, orang dengan makanan sama banyak...cakap pasal makanan...

YA ALLAH...tak sempat makan sangat sey...dah terlalu banyak tapi bahananya kena bebual2 dgn kekawan lama, maka tak sempat nak baham semua...tapi memang dasyat!..Thank u Norain and the rest of the gang who made this possible...ade lucky draw...menang tau!..lucky number 7!.

dapat photo frame..cute..tapi sampai sekarang masih belum isi dengan apa2...nanti la...ada nyanyi2 karaoke..tapi belum sempat si Rosli nak nyanyi,rosak pulak playernya...kecian..satay dia sedap tapi bakar2,..asik2 tinggal lidi je...ada tiup kek untuk those April babies..

tapi dorang malu2 sangat,I just melutut down there and tiup the candles...hehe...it feels good to blow out someone's candles..pasal diri sendiri tak pernah ada befday...kira balas dendam la...
Mula2 malu jugak kena ejek dah 'tembam'...tapi aku tengok ramai jugak yang dah makan yeast,..jadi kira orait jugak la..ramai 'geng' senasib..apa dorang ingat senang ke aku nak pelihara baby fat ni?..bertahun tau!..hehe...yg laki2..tak banyak yang da gemuk,..cuma ramai yg dah hilang rambut atau hilang gigi...nasib baik belum ada yang hilang akal...selisih!..hehe...

apa2 pun, I had a wonderful time and would regret if I shud miss out the party..cuma i perasan anak2 dorang masih kecik2...ramai yg beranak 2 atau 3....tapi tak bole lawan Noraini la...beranak 5!...boleh tahan...macam padi malinje..hehe..jgn marah noraini...gurau aje...
ape2 pun, i am thankful that they still remembered me...and we all managed to gel like family...i am even more thankful to see that kitorang masih macam dulu jugak..giler2...walaupun dah beranak penak.....

Looking forward to more reunions ahead..dan sepatah kata Kader,in 30 years' time,kita punya reunion patut adakan race...in wheelchairs!...(stay strong,my weak heart)
salam sayang salam ukhwah,
God bless u,my frenz!

International Friendship Day of April

2007-06-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

since the last time i updated, it was dated 4th April...so,..i guess it's back to April and that is where I'll start off this update...
something happened on 6th April,which is a Good Friday Holiday...but I can't remember what really happened..talk about short term memory....but on Friday the 13th, the school held its annual International Friendship Day cum Jumble Sale,with the school selling stuff and all proceeds go into helping out the needy students of our school.

The students, together in their respective clubs went all out staging sales, and games stalls and it was quite a fun fair,despite the rain that failed to dampen our spirits. We once again opened up a station selling customised badges with your face on it..

I was sick the few days b4,so Ros and Sally managed to pull up the rest of the guys and got everything that we needed ready by Thursday evening. Appreciate yr help,girlz!..Also, I was thrilled 2 see some of our frenz who actually took urgent leave to help out in this praiseful cause..
It was also the day that I went for my chk up @ NUH.So,...helped out a while in the morning b4 I went off with Sally for my 10.30am appt at the Cardiac Centre.Went off by taxi,and after a 'blood donation' session,rushed straight back to school to help out till 3.30pm. Got so engrossed in our success of breaking last year's collection I totally forgot to have lunch. But that's ok...I managed to pull off the day,with the help of my wonderful friends,Sally,Ros,June,Nor,Azlina,Hawa,Kak Yati,Gigi,Daisy,Deen,Janice,LingLing,and the rest of the gang..(forgive me if I left yr name out..but u know who u are!)End of the day,felt terribly tired but happy. Happy to be able to be part of the big hands reaching out to the needy.... God bless them.

2007-06-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

adoi....susah betul nak sign in...nak dekat dua bulan, baru dapat sign in...that explains my disappearance from my beloved comfort zone...Anywaez,..just testing to see if i could publish this...By God,..i have so much to tell, i gotta check back the events from my calendar kuda..don't panic ya..bukan kuda kranji tau,...but the old calendar yg kita dapat from apek tong gas...calendar ni bagus ah...complete dgn bulan2 islam.....but since i pakai gas gamen, calendar ni i kebas dari sape pun tak ingat...apa2 pun, wait for my stories..all the couple of month's load....my fingers got a big job ahead..
type away...

In sickness, and in health..till death do I..

2007-04-04T18:09:00.000+08:00

mmm...next story...
after the hoohahs of the kite making,..went on to make preparations for a wedding on my side..Again, I was choked up to my tonsils..what did I do?..lets see..

sew curtains for the house, make the hantaran/gubahan (with the help of a friend),went all the way to the panas Arab St just to hunt for the bloody but beautiful ribbons and satin - sew the little pouches to sumbat the bunga rampai - dress up the baskets into works of art - bake the single tier wedding fondant cake - assembled the barang2 decor - mmm....apa lagi..tak tau la apa nak cakap.

For this, I was scolded so many times for not sleeping over the nite becuz - get this- all the above are done in a week,together with other jobs/chores.. The biggest straw was when I did not sleep for 3 nites straight. Needless to say, I felt like ripping my heart out onto my palms and pump it manually,just to keep it beating.My failing eyes were shrouded with grey strands of hallucinating mirage. Setiap apa yang mataku terpandang ibarat fatamorgana yang datangnya berulang-ulang...tapi akhirnya menghilang...ceh!..sastera sekejap..

Anyway...nak dipendekkan cerita,..dan memanjangkan blog,
mukaku macam daging tak empuk,
jalan macam tak jejak bumi,
Ibaratnya kekata Pak Sudin bin Dali,
lang bo ti lang,
kui bo ti kui...

my mood?...jgn cakap..aku punya mengamuk, boleh terbalik satu kampung...

Inilah akibatnya :

orang yang mata tak cukup tidur,
badan yang tak cukup rihat,
otak yang tak cukup masa nak fikir,
hati yang tak baik2 sakit,
dan poket yang masih tak cukup duit..

fed up,babe ..fed up...
tapi apa2 pun...hai Ana...buuuaaaaatt jugak...nak cakap cari balak, tak jugak...nak cakap cari pahala,..dosa yang aku dapat agaknya ...nak cakap apa?..kalau dah namanya ANA = ini la jawabnya...DEGIL...hehe...tapi takpe..fedup punya fedup pun, aku happy jugak akhirnya...entah la...susah nak jelaskan APER KAH KEBENDANYA yang aku happykan ni...cuma Allah saje yang tauuuuu....

ape lagi nak crite eh...
ah..
next post lah...

Go fly kite....part 2

2007-04-04T18:07:00.001+08:00

Then it was followed with more trial-and-error sessions at Sally's house.After a hectic last minute(as usual)schedule in which I ignored my appt in the process,plus a terrible in-the-line-of-duty cut on my left thumb all the way down to my wrist which is now scarring me for life,we did quite a good job,a heartfelt gratitude to Sally,Ros,June for their help and not forgetting Nor,who rushed down rite after her work.The Malay teachers have to learn to do the 'wau', a traditional kite, originating from the coastal KELANTAN,eastern Malaysia. The Chinese teachers have to learn the art of making a 'dragonfly' kite,in which I'm most proud to say, designed the bamboo structure on my own. They were also given a step-by-step manual,again,ehem,designed and illustrated by myself,right down to a detailed drawn to scale specification.The team of Chinese teachers impressed me the most with their willing-to-learn attitude,despite the fact that some of them are somewhat 'veterans'in this area.They finished their kites happily in the 2hrs session which started at 3pm.As for the Malay teachers,they only managed to construct the base bamboo structure of the 'wau'.As far as my designs are concerned,I hv timed the construction of both types of kites individually and both could be achieved within the 2 hour slot. But then again,...where enthusiasm is concerned...hhm....rather disappointing...u go figure.....

But,..all in all,..proud to be able to impart my skills to everyone else,learning new ones along the way..and it was a good,handsome experience,..despite the fatigue and ...err...'hiccups'...guess what - still carried on with my Tuition after that at around 6pm...now THAT..is super..superfly..

till another post,
stay tuned..
*wink*

Go fly kite...

2007-04-04T07:01:00.000+08:00

hi people...
long time no blog..
U have no idea how BUSY I was since my last update..
.was needed here and there,...school,cck and mp...sometimes I felt that I had to be cut into half or quarters..just to fill the needs of the people around me..am I complaining?..nope..as much as I want to, I can't..well, at least I AM STILL needed..do I really want to be discarded?...hhmm...horrific...
Well,.my first story ...
...I was kept up to the brim with..mmm..where do I begin. Oh..I gotta revamp the TB class and came up with a new way of mass teaching,enhancing the system along the way. The new class is adapting well, so far, to my garangness.Apart from that,I held a workshop together with my team for the Malay and Chinese teachers of the Mother Tongue Department on 14th Feb,right after TB class @ the Art Room.A traditional-kite-making workshop to be exact.This is to equip them with the necessary skills to train the students later on to do their project for Mother Tongue Week.This year's focus will be on traditional games. it was agreed that traditional kite would be what the students will be making for their project.

Me, Sally and Ros met up at Ros' place to initialize the workshop. It was here that we took lots of pics (which I thot were too obnoxious to be posted here) on the first rangka that we managed to come up with.

2007-04-03T08:04:00.001+08:00

testing

The Medical Report

2007-02-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

Hi....
I'm back...(that was quite fast,huh?)
Anyway,...went to the hospital today with Miza and M.I.L...remember ah!..M.I.L stands for mother in law... We were late,thanks to me,the famous perpetual late comer of the century.But still,they have to wait for me. Met up with Dr Chai Ping,whom I had a blast talking to,about M.I.L's condition. Everything went well,to my surprise.(Alhamdulillah jugak la....)Then,she had a blood test done to find out the level of her potassium and sodium in the system that will determine the future administration of her medicine.Chey.....ckp macam Dr Suhana,sey....
Then I met up with Suzana the Cardiac Case Manager and she thot that I was a teacher!..Bole jugak la....respect beb!...sekali gue speaking,...berabok!!!
Then,M.I.L sebok sangat nak cari Pak Adan yang kita pun tak tau da keluar dari hospital tu ke belom. So,after a tiring wait at the pharmacy to get her ubat and that's where I also renewed my nitrate, went up to the 5th floor in search of the beloved Pak Adan,pasal anyway pun,nak settle her outstanding bills that consists of the medisave claim from Jamaludin.There,kita cari Pak Adan macam nak rak...illek!...then,we enquired at the Patient Service Centre.Nothing..THEN......rupa2nya nama yang kita kasi salah...M.I.L asik teriak dia Pak Adan,...his real name was ADUN BIN HUSIN.....and he was already discharged on Wednesday....so,M.I.L felt disappointed pasal tak dapat bebual dengan bini Pak Adun,yg bernama Mak Ara jugak....kira tak dapat gossip la....then,terus I enquired balik about the blood test results and her preliminary findings proved to be stable enuff.....kalau gue cakap banyak2 sangat pasal itu medical terms kat sini pun bukan korang paham....hehe. Anyway,kita da bole balik and her next appointment will be on April,...one week after mine...,.so I rushed back.Muka Kak Mizah and M.I.L a bit senget la...i can understand that they were hungry and wanted to eat at the cafeteria... but I really gotta rush back pasal ada tuition......sorry,girls...So...off we go.in a taxi yang aircon dia pun macam hidup segan mati tak mau....FED UP....
Until my next post,
..be kind to animals....
*muah*

A January Recap

2007-02-23T18:09:00.000+08:00

...
hi...
although it's already February,.my January was a month of temperamental chaos.Mum-in-law was hospitalised (yet again)on the nite of 21st,followed by my own girl, Ira,on the next day at the same hospital.Mum-in-law,in short,let's call her MIL. The reason she was brought in to the A&E was due to her usual spoof of diabetes and habitual pukes,only to find out later that she's got severe blockage in her arteries and was recommended to go for a bypass.Ira was in for prolonged fever after 2 visits to the GP failed to wipe out her viral flu.Whenever MIL was brought to the hospital,I became the resident 'famiy doctor' who will somehow always make the decision to call the paramedics to the scene,give detailed descriptions and sit on the passenger seat of the ambulance.It has become so often that on the last ride,one of the paramedics actually remembered me as a regular face of the A & E Department. MIL has a total of 5 sons and 2 daughters,all married,aged between 39 and 50.Still,they will need me to navigate the family.U think I talk big? U better believe that this is true.Largely due to the fact that I'm an aggressive pain-in-the-neck,laser-mouthed,impatient woman with a don't-mess-with-me attitude,plus,a strong knowledge of the medical field and terms,(if i can say so myself)I will always be the voice behind every family meetings,decision-making,and....u know what I mean.I always go forward because I can't wait forever for someone of a higher 'hierarchy' stand to come and grab the mike.It never happened.Timid?...I don't know.But over the years,I came to realize that not everybody has the guts to say his/her mind without bothering of what the other party will think/say about them.I am such a person.I don't bother to please people. I don't believe in being a hypocrite in pursuit of having people to like me.I say what I want,what I feel,of what I know,see and hear.It really is so frustrating when people don't say what they EXACTLY feel.Everybody seems to be in a race in being nice,although they can sometimes be the biggest hypocrite of all,in the process.I am a person who won't believe in the credibility of the number of your age. It's just a number.It doesn't guarantee the wisdom of an individual.They say u can always count on an adult for maturity.Well,guess what.?That is a whole load of crap.Age is- and -never will be the factor of maturity.What gives a person his/her maturity is their ability to think and act as a person of any given age or gender. He/she should be able to think and act as a child,as a teenager,as a youngster,as an adult or senior folk in various kinds of life's circumstances and straining issues.He/she should have the nerves of steel to apprehend and intercept any of life's hiccups that goes along the way,with sheer wisdom,courage,integrity,dignity,pride,belief,and an incredible,strong level of self-esteem without exercising prejudice and favouritism.
That's quite a mouthful.
Back to the issue,I have always catered to the needs of my in-laws.Although I would like to see the work being shouldered by the 'deserving' parties,it never seemed to be improving.Nobody came forward to 'take over' as I'm seen to be a person with an eye for details and no stones were left unturned when it comes to verbal family meetings.They would feel that anything they did would seem insufficient for me to approve of.I want people to learn as much as how I did.Nothing is impossible to be achieved if u have a keen interest to learn the ropes.MIL knew she is a whole load of mess inside but she was sceptical and,with all due respect,very very stubborn. She doesn't like to hang on to western practice of medicine.She doesn't abide by the rules on which a patient has to adhere to.The family and I tried our darnest to instill an awareness in her in the wake of her medical status.
She would refuse our help although she knew that we meant well..Everytime I want to reason with her,I would be seen as rude because I remained adamant in my stand not to give in to her self-destructing ways.It may seem to a bit tedious to cram abt 15 years of stories and occurrences into 1 solid posting. To summarise, I expect some sort of understanding,appreciation and support from her children..Sadly,I don't get that as much as u would expect. It was not until recently that I managed to overcome my petty-but-understandable sulking,that I went on to source out for a favourable solution,if not the best one,at least one that it good enuff to be absorbed.We gathered during the CNY holidays after my MIL was disharged again from the hospital days before.Found out that the only way to deal with her tantrum is to actually deal with it psychologically. Somehow,I must say it worked coz she started to develop an appetite and can somewhat consume something as a base for her stomach to take in the effects of the medication. I got the siblings to do a pot-luck and had a gathering to feast off so as to encourage MIL to have a hearty good time as well as to eat.Hence,she managed to obtain some energy which is highly needed by her. Seeing the children and grandchildren seemed to inject a ray of hope and cracked a smile on her face. It seemed to lift up her spirits and she gradually is improving for the better. I just hope that she'll continue to help-us-to-help-her. I 'm also hoping for a slightly better result when I and Kak Miza send her for her appointment tmrw...
Until then,....stay tuned....

Of wealth,riches and....

2007-02-07T00:01:00.001+08:00

hi all..
As u all know, we have just celebrated the new year in the Islamic calendar. Soon, our Chinese frenz will be celebrating their Lunar New Year.Usually,the tradition goes in wishing one another a year full of wealth and prosperity. Wealth...Why wealth?..Why stop at wealth?..why not health,love,maturity or even world peace? More often than not,u're gonna find the human race forever rushing about,dragging along their shadows,in pursuit of monetary relief or paper chase.Monetary...better known as money.They say that money can't buy the world nor happiness. True. It can be a vice.It can be a virtue, depending on how we utilize these pretty little papers.It IS quite important substantially,in this crude world that we live in.That, my friend, I must say,is undeniable.
.However,since when has it been a symbol of wealth?Chaste?Have these little papers divided us into a hierarchy of social status and standards? Or did we realise that it is just a part of our essentials? Why are we always classifying ourselves into a society of the rich,the poor and the beaten? Why are we always full of leisurely and luxurious demands,instead of indulging in a practice of self-sufficiency? Yes,I agree that we can't compare our lives with the civilisation of the past millenium. But things were so much simpler when we have less. Less of monetary relief.We humans are always wanting and asking for more,sometimes forgetting to look back and be thankful for what we had been given. It is absolutely ok to work hard for a better living but is BETTER enough for us? How good is BETTER?..If u think that BEST is the answer,is there such a thing as the BEST living?..Think about it,BEST is not the end of mankind's thirst for the finest.We can never feel satisfied.We'll always feel a lack of something every now and then.However, we forget that we are always being granted with the things that we need because we can never be void of desiring for the things we want. People of the past work and toil for a living. But we now have been living before we even start to work.And when we put together wealth and qualifications side by side,it resulted in a new breed of super brats.
I'd like to touch on my gender.
Those who are working,hold good job designations,are often seen as the upperclass. And those who are not,(the housewives) are SOMETIMES seen as the group of people who don't even have any kind of expertise for companies out there to employ. Some housewives who don't even have to work (because they are soo well provided)are known as TAI-TAIs.Some housewives don't work becoz they are too old. Some don't work because they are too tied down with the abundant 'fruits of their labour'.Some don't work because they are not so well educated and thus don't have the confidence to go into the workforce.Some are well educated but were restricted from going out to work because of ridiculous circumstances.Some just play the regular game and just wants to be provided without having to think about anything. Whether some women work with reasons of either to boost up the family income,or just to realize their dreams and showcase their capabilities and talents,or just killing time and earn some extra pocket money in the process,or just to escape from the confinement of doing housework,I have always believed in the freedom of choice.But being women,the setbacks that we faced are the titles that we adorned across our chest.: WIFE - WOMAN - MOTHER.
All these point out to the responsibilities that we have to saddle on our delicate shoulders since the day we said I DO or in the Islamic Solemnization, when the husbands said : "Aku terima nikahnya..."
I know that we don't actually have a correct answer to this but I'd like to highlight here that not ALL housewives are ignorant and bodoh. Don't judge them just because they do mundane tasks day in and out. Don't judge them just because they don't adorn Armani powersuits,don't walk in Jimmy Choo's expensive shoes or carry Prada handbags. Don't judge them just because they go to sweaty markets,pushing along their trolley carts,liasing with vendors for the morning's best bargain.You might never know that there may be some who ACTUALLY completed their education cycle,held good jobs,earned good paychecks,but sacrificed EVERYTHING to be a stay-at-home mum,JUST so that they could be the best TEACHER for their kids,the best MARKETING MANAGER in the house,the best CHEF in the kitchen,the best ATTORNEY in the family warfare,the best ACCOUNTANT in the family finance,the best CHAMBERMAID in housekeeping,the best CLEANER of the toilets,the best ENGINEER in their crafts and the best CEO in the family business.If I were to be imposed with a question like :
"Excuse me,will u make a good housewife?"
My answer would be :
"I can be anything you want me to be...but all work,little pay,no appreciation and meagre show of love and concern will definitely make a lifeless housewife!"

Agree?..No?.....
It's just an opinion.
Go figure.
*wink*

To part or not to part...

2007-01-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

If u would read my "Memori Muharam" below,U would notice that I had to break it into 5 parts. Have been having problems publishing my posts and just wanna let u people know that it's rather frustrating BUT...please..believe me...I DO have stories to tell....

So read on..

Memori Muharam ( part 5 and the finale )

2007-01-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

...continued from part 4...(PLEASE!! don't be lazy. Read my previous posts...)
I went out,without changing my outfit,to her primary school to fetch her home. At home,during the funeral rites,I refused to talk to anyone. Some relatives noticed the change in me and one of my uncles tried to console me and said that he knew I was holding back and he asked me to let go of my grief..Told him I couldn't cry anymore although I knew she meant the world to me.I don't really know why.I grieve for her but maybe I just don't wanna lose it there in front of the family. When it was time to go to the cemetery,I completely blacked out due to a very high fever,which came on sooo suddenly.My uncle stayed behind to bring me to the doc.At night,my relatives bunked in.Some of us,including me,decided to sleep in the room where she died.But as the nite grew,I noticed that they scampered out one by one to sleep in the living room,leaving me all alone.Were they scared?I don't know.I just knew that I shouldn't be afraid of the shadows of my loved ones. In the morning,while they were busy talking among themselves about strange 'noises' that they heard thru the nite,I was thinking of how to cope with the fact that she is no more with me.
Meeha bte Asmawee.
Years have passed.But forgotten,she will not be.For she , and all my loved ones who have gone, will always be mentioned in my prayers,for as long as I live.
Al-Fatehah.....

Memori Muharam ( part 4 )

2007-01-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

...continued from part 3...
I uttered my destination to him in between my teeth,shivering with cold.I also apologised to him for wetting the seat with my drenched self.As he drove,he noticed my uncontrollable sobs and asked me bluntly if there was a family death. I thanked him for his understanding and he drove me quickly but safely.May he be blessed because he did not want to take the fare from me and that he wanted to do a sedekah.
Back home,tears and cries from tired faces greeted me from the staircase.I surprised everyone when I showed up in a drenched state but no more tears.No more tears. How come?..I don't really know.Took a step of faith and courage and went up to face my motionless Gran on her bed.I looked at her peaceful sleeping face and whispered:'Innalillahi wainnalillahi raji'uun'(From God we came and to God we return)
My cousins rushed in one by one,in their school uniforms,crying.I looked around.Where's Lela?

Memori Muharam ( part 3 )

2007-01-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

...continued from part 2...
She's not going to wait for me..
I remember vividly when weeks b4 her death,the doctor broke the news that she's beyond cure and that we shud all be ready for 'it'.Every nite,I kept vigil beside her bed,reciting the Quran.Calls from then-boyfriend were ignored. I prayed to Allah that if she were to be taken away,I'm ready and redha as I didn't want to see her suffer anymore.She was already bed-ridden,paralysed from torso down.We took turns staying awake through day and nite,and I even took a week's leave from work. Alas,when I had to return to work on that fateful Monday morning,I received the dreaded call from my mom,saying that she breathed her last about half an hour after I whispered to her ear that I got to go back to work and that I'll be with her again later in the evening. I clammed up the mug that I was holding for the morning drink and after informing the boss,stormed off from the building. My mind was a thick cloud of uncertainty and disbelief.I decided to take a cab home.Taxi.Taxi.Half and hour by the roadside.No taxi.Adding to the drama,the sky opened up to unleash its merciless downpour.I was without an umbrella.I murmured her name.I just walked along the then-halway-reconstructed Raffles Hotel that underwent renovation towards Raffles City or Sogo as it was known then,hoping to get a cab from the stand. Passers-by glued their eyes on me as I walked in a daze,fully drenched,my wet long hair covering 3/4 of my face,in my blue&white mini kurung which clung tightly to my body.My tears went unnoticed as the rain continuously pour down on me..I finally got a cab driven by a Malay uncle.

Memori Muharam ( part 2 )

2007-01-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

..continued from part 1...
I remember one devilish lady that barred me from entering her house.I could not go beyond her red concrete stairs.I swore that I would not be insulted in my life and neither will my Gran.I swore to be a successful person not in money-material,but as a successful thinker.I would put these people to shame.
Despite that,she always advised me to endure hardship and said that there's always sunshine after rain.I continued helping my Gran in her work.I would sell kueh that she made.I would pound chillies with the ancient batu giling in a terkangkang pose.Hard work,but as long as she's beside me,we found solace in each other.She taught me how to pray for the first time,alongside her,in our boyan-telekung that she sewed herself.It had sleeves to put yr arms in for easier Takbiratul-Ihram.She introduced me to self-sufficiency,appreciating every little thing,every morsel that were granted to us.She made me love kuah-celok,cencaru sumbat and more Boyan goodies.She taught me the Boyan (Bawean) language,in which I practice till now,to anyone who knew the unique accent.She sent me to madrasah and nursed me to health whenever I was gravely ill.She would protect me from anyone who despises my Madras heritage. She could protect me from lustful eyes of the kampung boysShe would protect me if anyone ,including my mom,tried to lay a finger on me.I was her darling,and for that I was loathed by some..She would ensure my wellbeing.In return,I always told her how I'm gonna grow up,excel in studies,get a good job,and shower her with luxurious necessities and make sure she'll be served.And everytime when I said that, she would just crack a smile that spelled "insya Allah..."
But alas...I couldn't predict the future.

Memori Muharam ( part 1 )

2007-01-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

To all Muslim readers, Salam Maal Hijrah 1428.The date is supposed to bring a ray of hope to us but somehow,to me,it portrays a painful memory when at this day of the muslim calendar,ie. 20th July 1990,I lost my beloved Granny.She died from multiple diagnosis.Although she's not my real biological Grandma,(she adopted my Mum)I have always regarded her as my own,eversince I could remember her voice and recognise her face.She's my Granny and my Mum,all rolled into one woman of substance.I lived with her as my parents were working when I was still little.Born in the kampung,No. 97B,Jalan Alsagoff is my world.My parents were also from the same area but quite further away from us,at Jalan Ubi,taking along my big sis Icah with them,leaving her under the care of Mak Esah the babysitter.So,I remained with Gran and Awa(her late husband who died 11 years after)until we moved to the humble little 3-room flat in 1978.I remember her as my mentor and saviour.She was the face of love that greeted my eyes from sunrise and the one to serenade me to sleep.She would force down half-boiled eggs with kicap as breakfast of the champions for me every morning without fail,before sending me off to the kampung's PAP kindergarten.She would tocang my long keling hair after slapping my head with minyak MBR.(the decade's most trusted hair oil)that eventually lead to my present thick jet-black hair.She's a cat-lover who would always entertain me with her Perang Jepun stories while cuffing my ankles with her nimble but strong fists,rummaging through her hair in search of kutu.
Although Awa was working,she was independent and resourceful.She would make kueh for me to sell around the kampung and worked as a washerwoman,to boost her duit pasar so as to give me the best that she could afford.I would follow her to the houses of the rich and helped to wash,wring and dry out the clothes. Daily.I remember

2007-01-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

...blogger is always giving me problems when it comes to publishing my post..
but still,I'm gonna give it a try..

A shoulder to cry on..

2007-01-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

I wanna say something.Something extremely weird happened to me yesterday night. As the sun was leaving the day, a tremendous sense of sadness engulfed me,overcasting a shadow of doubt deep within my heart. This uninvited feeling came about slowly but rapidly palpitating me into a horrific halt. If u are starting to think 'what the heck is she talkin about',...well, guess what...it's even harder for me to explain what is it that I was feeling...
I was going about doing what I always did around that time (well,come to think about it,I don't really know what I did..)..chatting away with the kids,fixing dinner,n stuff like that...and it came. A suspension of feeling in the form of a mega-magnitude of worry, sadness, sorrow, anxiety, guilt, fear, extreme fear, extreme extreme fear, brewed in me. I can't tell u guys what the cause was, although I knew WHY I felt that way. Really can't tell. But the question is: why is it so damn EXTREME? These expressions came about throughout our lives commonly and we managed to hold it down. But yesterday was an exception. I was propelled into a self-concocting well of tears that could very well drown my own eyeballs. I don't feel like smiling. I don't think that I wanna be happy again.I suddenly felt this dreadful feeling of : what if I can't smile anymore? I need this smile to give me the sun and to dry up my rain.I tried to stay calm and sort this killing feeling inside me but it got me and I finally succumbed into a deep sorrowful act. I cried - like I never cried before. My heart spoke hand-in-hand with my mind,in a language of broken tears.Prayed for an answer.Prayed for strength. Prayed for protection. Only Allah knows what I was feeling and the answers to my questions. My heart felt mutilated - wrenched,ripped,torn. I couldn't sleep and would not sleep.It went on thru the dragging night. Hub asked me what was wrong. I couldn't answer him. I just asked for permission to give some space for me to let go of my flooding tears. I told him I don't want 'anything bad to happen'. He felt frustrated that I was talking in circles, adding that we would not be called a normal human being if we were to know the answers to every question.
Late into the night, God answered my prayers and the 'nasty' feelings subsided at a steady pace. Call me a paranoid if u want. I don't care. But I knew if my prayers weren't granted, I don't know how I could carry on anymore.....

I just thot of sharing this with u. I was thinking :

When you sail in the sea of life,
Do not avoid the storms and rough waters,
Becuz calm seas,
Will never make skillful sailors.

God is Great and may you always be blessed,my loved ones.
(Abg - I luv u..)

Salam Sayang, Salam Ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.

First to Bata...then to school

2007-01-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

...ooohh...3rd January. A date that'll mark the 1st day of school.Mixed feelings accompany the various needs of the students. Some excited,some not.For the not,the dreaded mornings would be the prime culprit,followed by the homeworks n stuff. For the excited?..well...maybe the reunion of frenz or 'boyfrenz'?.Hmm...
I'm very,extremely,absolutely,famous for being the most 'LAST MINUTE'person on the face of this earth.(ask my frenz,and they'll agree to it simultaneously)Therefore,it is only today - yes - today, that I just bought the girls their shoes.Was thinking of buying them earlier,but thot that their feet might grow a little more bigger if I shud buy them during the holidays.*Lame excuse*...Anyway,not @Bata,..but the little shoe shop downstairs that u can see from my kitchen window.Though not exclusive,I'm proud to patronize it for the cheap tag and realistically,very comfortable to wear gears.So,bought them their shoes n some stationery.
To add value to my LAST MINUTE LADY title, I washed their uniforms,iron, n everything in the whole of today..hehe...take that!Itu bukan last minute, itu namanya TERROR or as they call it - cari nahas!..However,b4 u shake yr head in disbelief or try hard to senyum sinis, let me tell u this - I am so GOOD as doing things at the eleventh hour,no details ever slipped from my mind!..call me action or snobbish ...up to u..but I am what I am..at least I got everything done MYSELF!..not like some other people yg sikit2 mintak tolong buat itu lah,ini lah...MENYAAAAAMPAH!

9.30pm - I tucked the girls to bed. Some of u out there night think...yek eleh...siang nya!!...but I believe in a good head start for my girlz for their school days...Gone will be the late afternoon getups,..& hello sunshine coz..the year is up and we're off to school again!..
Goooooooooooodd Moorrningg,..Teacheeeeerrr!

Its 2007 and Aidiladha 1427H! (part 2)

2007-01-01T12:27:00.000+08:00

(ini blogger kasi problem lagi lah..sebab tu kena part 2 lagi..jgn malas ah...baca the previous post dulu la...)
Hari Raya Haji pulak, I did the same with my side of the family at my house jugak.But my darling brother Boboy takde pasal kerja. Din pun takde pasal kena duty kat Sentosa bcuz of the countdown - sampai besok pagi.Mmm...miz u , guys...But,anyway.. Food? MasyaAllah! Satay,nasi,sambal goreng,ayam goreng,sambal sotong kering,serunding,kari daging,roti kirai,salad telur,kuih lopes,ketupat,lontong,lepat,roti perancis, and the list goes on...dasyat!Walaupun potluck, tapi bole kasi makan satu kampung!..Karaoke jugak..dlm banyak2,suara Wan dgn aku kira fantastic lah..(hehe)..Icah cuba nak nyanyi tapi kena lempar dgn tapawe..mak pun nyanyi..lagu Emilia Contessa,Uji Rashid plus lagu kental Sanisah Huri iaitu si Baju Hijau..
Takpe lah...sekali2..we had fun jugak and rumahku sekali lagi macam kena bom. Kemas mcm nak rak,sampai the stroke of midnite. Nasib baik lepas tu tak jadi pumpkin aku.Lepas tu tengok Laila Isabella. Walaupun da pernah tengok, aku tengok lagi pasal its sooooooo romantic and cute..(luv u, abg..)...ape2 pun, aku bersyukur kerana diberi peluang menghabiskan masaku berkumpul dgn ahli2 keluarga dari kedua pihak sehingga berakhirnya 2006. Cerita Tahun Baru?...tungguuuu......

Its 2007 and Aidiladha 1427H!

2007-01-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye, another year just went by.It's 2007,in the midst of Aidiladha celebrations. Some will close an eye towards Hari Raya Haji,but will berhempas pulas to celebrate the new year countdown. Last Christmas,I spent the public holiday,(not christmas,ah..)hosting a feast-bbq-karaoke session at my place with hub's family.Food included satay,mee rebus daging,tomyam steamboat(nak cerita pasal steamboat ni pun,sedih..)and ntah ape2 lagi lah,..tak ingat.Da puas makan,kitorang nyanyi. biasalah,lagu wajib senah (Wajah Kekasih)mesti kena on punya.Dia nyanyi dgn Tipah.Lagu ni kalau tak dikumandangkan, alamat tak sah. Lagu wajib #2, sung by Luncai Emas kita dgn diiringi Ipin, iaitu a medley of lagu2 Radja,Relaku Pujuk by Spider, and the whole collection of M Nasir.Luncai Emas aka (budak2 gelar) Street Warrior, kalau da pegang mike, kirim salam lah kepada yg lain2 yg ada hati nak nyanyi.Dah puas nyanyi sampai 12mdnite,kitorang hentam cerita hantu,movie after movie sampai 4am..terpekik pekau...ah ngkau!.Dorang balik, rumah aku macam kena bom. Tapi tak kisah la...enjoy giler..

The Sleepless Insomniac

2006-12-23T03:10:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep...I can't sleep..I can't sleep... tonite is just another one of those nites in which I habitually stay up till sunrise. I can't help it. Been like this since my school days.(well that explains my dark circles..urgh!).I kind of like to stay up to absorb the pristine tranquility of the darkness.I find the sound of silence beautiful and the mystical ink-coated sky with its sprinkle of diamond-dusted stars,together with soft,wispy clouds underlined with a touch of the moon ray, a mesmerizing sight.Indeed,...perfectly created by God for us to see.Maybe I shud work in some night-shift jobs.hehe..but seriously,while everyone is so obsessed with their 'beauty' sleep, I'm totally on the contrary.Some said that since the universe is being created with night and day,we shud apply to it subconsciously.Well,as for me, if u can appreciate the refreshing gleam of the sunshine in the day, why not admire the beauty of the pitch-dark night?..and like they say,... The sky is at its darkest before dawn...Go figure..

Then and Now...

2006-12-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

This is an old shot of my Mum n Dad,circa mid-60s..

This particular shot of my Mum in her teens (I merged my pic here taken in my teens too)made me realize that I looked like her!...what do u think? The Indian-Malay blood mix that runs in me - rocks!!

Then and Now...

2006-12-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

hey,hey,hey....I'm back. It's been a while since the last update.Very busy lately.Went to get my final wisdom tooth out.Still sending dad-in-law 4 his chkup, went to get myself a new nitrate. But the best part?..I FINALLY FOUND THE BLUE TILES!!! Credit goes to myself for finding it thru the NC Ceramics' website. Located at Tuas, I immdltly went there to cash-n-carry.Works hv started and tmrw will be the final day where they'll be fixing the toilet.Phew! That's quite a job,huh?

Anyway, spent the heavily-raining Sunday @ Icah's place 2 celebrate Lisa & Hamirul's b'day.Also my 1st time 2 see my latest niece Intan Marissha since she was born on 8th November. (ape punya auntie,sekarang baru jumpa..) Mom was there too. In the evening,we browsed thru some old photos and I chanced upon a few memorable ones..

This was taken when Ira was abt a year old, @ Pontian.

And this one,Adik, also abt a year old,at our old house.

The Lost December (the season finale)

2006-12-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

..(continued from the previous,previous post..go n read them la..don be lazy...I got no choice but to post it bit by bit since blogger gave me some problems earlier..)

Anywaez,..I know that this month would go past me like a good gust of wind. Very fast, but it's breeze will leave me feeling cool and refreshed eventually.So, who said I lost my December?
Finally, a personal quote that I created:

"Time goes by so slowly for those who wait,but flies for those who can't even stay awake."
Go figure.

Salam Sayang, Salam Ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.
__________________________________
Abg - if u're reading this, I thank u again for yr luv,doa,n support.

The Lost December (Part 2)

2006-12-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

...(continued from the previous post)..This particular moan greeted me everyday like the sunrise. So did my cooking request.Gotta have food on the table everyday.Not that I dont coook.(Did I mention I was a great cook?..hehe)But food availability is like 24/7!Breakfast,lunch,dinner PLUS teabreak snacks,and dessert(homemade,I tell ya!)When I questioned " ..Dik, jgn makan banyak2...macam mana nak kurus?"...will only be answered with a melodious'..sape suruh mama masak sedap-sedap?"..(ini cakap masjid punya tau..ini budak2 memang layarburuk..apa kena-mengena dgn layarburuk,pun tak tau...)Complain or compliment? Good cook or bad dietician?Nak marah ke nak besar hati? U decide..And then there were the sibling wrestlings..*headache* macam 'Celebrity Death Match'..There are times when we love them to be around the house during the holidays but SOMEtimes,they make me go bonkers!However,there was a time when Ira n her sis(God bless them) cooked for the family when I was ill.YES.Stove-cooking.Nothing beats that blissful feeling in my heart when all the things you taught were applied into good use -and- in times of need.(Luv u ,girls!)

Initially, I thot NOTHING superb happened this month..but what I said above actually IS THE ESSENCE of it all!..Sending my in-laws for their chkup made me think of how fragile we could get in our greying years, I learned how to care for chronic illnesses, and appreciate their existence. The quality time I spent with the kids could very well be the envy of some working mothers.Being ill made me witness the culinary skills hidden under my girls.Tutoring them myself proved 2 be blessful when they came back with fruitful results.It dawned on me on how true the saying in the OST of HIKMAH that went : "..aku percaya, tiada yang sia-sia...semua 'kan ada hikmahnya.."...and for all that, sesungguhnya aku bersyukur..

The Lost December

2006-12-13T10:14:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to stay sober while posting this..not sober as in 'sober' but as in stayin alert. Since my last update, I was - how shud I say this - not exactly in the pink of health. Only God knows what happened to me. It might sound paranoid but for a moment I thot my life journey ends here,(astaghfirullah) but now, I can say that I am back up to my feet again.(alhamdulillah)-well at least for now(insyaAllah)
*thank you my beloved sayang, for your doa*
enuff said

I'd like to say something about this month.We are now basking (well at least for some of us) in the final school holidays for the year.Come a couple of weeks later, school reopens and off we go again, kids and stay-at-home mums alike. Rush!Rush!
Looking back,what did I do during the holidays?..Let's do a quick recap..

I can say it's been almost every week,alternately,I wud be sending my in-laws for their medical checkup,..heavy rain,..my medical checkup,...tutoring the kids for their madrasah exams,...rain again,..kids camp,..endless chores,...whining and hunting for my blue tiles,...prepare house for the HDB repair works,..hunting for school books in which I dont understand why there's a tendency of them being out of stock,..more rain,..more checkups,..and SUDDENLY,..lo and behold, it's end of the year and u can almost hear takbir Aidiladha.(Allahu Akbar!)
I was like...whoa!...slow down,little clock.I haven't even bring out the kids for outings - I repeat outings -not holidays. Going on a holiday in December means risking yrself and yr luggage to be drenched!
Flashback..I remembered I was so excited when school ended on my b'day last month..
I thot: no more fuss n rush in the morning, no more uniform ironing, no more school allowances, more relaxation..not bad rite?..W-R-O-N-G!
Bcuz...suddenly, I heard a voice that went:"Mama..boring ah...makan dah,tengok tv dah,main computer dah, abey adik nak buat ape lagi?"

PSG Raya 2006 photo updates

2006-12-07T01:47:00.000+08:00

To my PSG frenz, I am only uploading half of the pics that we took that day. The other half is still with Ros..inside her digicam. Will update the rest once I can cable up her cam into my laptop. Relive these pics for the moment..

Feeling Blue ( part 2 )

2006-12-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

As mentioned, I went to WHC to find some tiles. Was pretty amazed with the vast display of choice that even tempted me to actually change the whole toilet...but hold on....WHAT!..NO BLUE!...what in the world is happening here?!! Most of the colours are earth-toned,shocking yellows but..NO BLUE?..The blue they had semua yang stail poster colour kering punya.Ya Allah!!..I rounded the place a few times to make sure I'm not being taken for a ride but true enuff,..that's abt it!The darkest blue tiles tu pun under the phased out section. The rest are light blue..A feeling of rage began to engulf me but was quickly put out by Ipin. The kids were whining for us to get a total makeover of the toilet. I must say I was quite..no..VERY tempted too..but gotta stick w the budget. I still hv abt a couple of weeks more to hunt.Thot of scouting for it at some other places. But the disappointment of not succeeding it in the first place seemed to bring down my morale.I was thinking what if I couldn't find it anywhere? WHY am I so obsessed with a blue toilet , u asked? I do no..maybe the colour gives me a sense of coolness while 'sweating' our yr business.hehe..Guess I'll have to make do with what was offered to me until I could come up with the full budget to come up with a whole new toilet. In this process,it dawned on me on how PRECIOUS the room is to me. Besides a venue for our 'biological exports', it is one of the most highly-utilized room in the house that one could ever have.And therefore, do not underestimate its purpose,make an investment,make it pleasing to your eyes,make it dear to you as much as I do - as you're gonna find yourself sitting in there everyday,urgently or not,for the rest of your life.

Feeling Blue...

2006-12-02T12:06:00.000+08:00

It's been abt a couple of years my neighbour below complained of a leakage on their kitchen ceiling,leading to the bathroom. Investigations from the HDB showed no signs of source from us but maybe due to the age-old condition of our block,I was 'forced' to agree to repair/change my kitchen toilet's floor tiles. But when they showed me some of the sample tiles, I was like - WHAT!!! A VERY PALE-LIFELESS-ALMOST-WHITE-BLUE TO REPLACE MY COBALT BLUE???? And worse,they only have that under the blue tone..the rest are all hidup-segan-mati-tak-mau punya colours.AAAARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! Punya tension!The contractors who came to negotiate with me n ipin were taken aback with my snobbish,over the top,attitude. Who cares!Even if I'm to pay half of the goodwill repair scheme,I still have to at least be given a colour that actually matches with the rest of my ice-cool-blue toilet theme!Dorang salah orang la nak suruh I membabi buta (apasal nama babi ni asik jadi mangsa kata2 bidalan , eh?) nak suka2 agree to sign up for whatever that's being offered. I mesti tekan balik punya la. Dorang tak tau I ni Complain Queen yang tersohor kat sini.But they said since they are under contract with HDB,they can only offer a limited number of tile samples.If I want my own,I'll have to bear the cost.
O K A Y LAH...
Even if I hv to fork out a bit more,I've decided to hunt for my own tiles. Bukan ngada2..but I can't imagine having that colour yang mcm seluar dalam putih terkena nila sikit tu to be my toilet floor. Urgh! (ni step kerek ah..)So,the works will commence around 19th Dec. Today,I'm gonna go to Sungei Kadut (alamak...nama pun,tak hensem..)..maybe to White Horse Ceramics (bukan kuda kat kranji ah...)to look for a closer colour..Wish me luck! Kalau tak dapat,I gegar factory2 batu kat situ.Factory batu punya banyak satu Singapore,takkan satu pun takde colour yg I nak?..Takpe..tunggukan keputusannya...

Kuala Terengganu 2006

2006-12-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

Oh...where do I even begin this story about the trip! Lets see...

My father in law (part 2)

2006-11-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

Konon2, this was my face while looking for him around CCK. Muka kena matahari(ini petikan muka fed up time kat terengganu..oh ya..terenggau..I'll post abt that trip soon..but for now,anyway,) look at my father in law.?
Just wanna intro him....looks angelic rite?..but can sometimes make us craack n crumble with his gelagat....*sigh*
HOWEVER,....I LUV U, BAK!(kalau my mum in law kan, dia panggil Bah-ngkau!)

Kalau tau hari tu panas, pakai mcm ni lagi baik...

FED UP!

2006-11-28T21:24:00.001+08:00

Been struggling to publish my post - but to no avail. Wat hpned????

PSG Raya 2006

2006-11-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

On wednesday,22nd Nov,our PSG(Parent Support Group) cum Taman Bacaan mothers berjalan raye.Oh ya,4 those who do no,I am very active in the school's PSG,currently the In-charge of the Taman Bacaan (Malay LSP Programme)with a team of members.Have been in this for 3 years and counting.Great support from my mates.So,every raya we jalan2 collection.This year lambat sikit due to the exams and stuff. Consisting of myself,Ros,Azlina aka Adek,Nor,Sally,Sahmah, and a new member Kak Yati.Kak Normah couldn't join us - babysit somebody.(Why do they call it babysit anyway? Do we SIT on the baby?..duh..)Anywaez...our kids also joined us.Takpayah ckp berapa byk la..cukup to goncang dunia punya..
1st stop - Kak Yati's place. Served roti kirai/jala/renjis plus kari daging.Lupa nak tanya daging ape tapi ini di tanggung halal punya lah.Ada goreng pisang or ada org ckp,pisang goreng.Pisangnya jenis tanduk.(Baguuuuuuuusss...)Air oren gas.I tak dpt jamah roti kirai pasal tinggal brape keping je dok dibaham kekawan yg lain.(Any of u reading this, u know who u are!..hehe..)So,I telan itu banana sama air oren.Good combination?...Burp!!
2nd stop - Sahmah's place.Served nasi ayam and sambal udang.Air..eh..lupa lah. Aku tak minum rupanya..apa lah Mah..!Kuih pun lat lat tinggal itu je.
3rd stop - Sally's place.On the way 2 her house,basah sey kita kena hujan rahmat yang lebat ya amat merentas dari rumah sahmah to the nearest bustop.Takpe..air aje ape.Served murtabak crackers.Kes Mami Bon punya resepi la.Air teh/Milo,ada koktel jugak.Kat sini,Adek dgn aku berlumba sape boleh melepas dulu..(what goes in,must come out whaaat...ape nak malu..sape yg suka simpan,tu kira simpan najis tau namanya..hehe)
4th stop - Rumah Datin Seri la..sapo lagi.I served kari ayam pekat melekat untuk dicecah dgn roti perancis.Ada epok2 TJ.(Bukan promosi-setakat honest,beli kat Prime)Ada salad timun,telur,tomato-ah..ni buat sendiri tapi telur tu ayam punya kerje..Air Fruit Punch yg lazat membasahi tekak kawan2ku yg da penat terkekek ketawa.Satu dram oi!
5th stop - Nor's place.Penat tau.Jalan kaki.Da berat tabuk(perut) satu2,..kena jalan.Adik tak ikut pasal tu rumah akak dia sendiri.Dia balik terus dulu pasal baru nak masak berserta cuba untuk melepas..kat rumah sally dgn i, she failed to let go.Anyway,we're served with mee goreng siam...eh..ke..mee siam goreng?..ah same la tu..Air,sama dgn saya punya.
6th stop - Adik's place.Served tomyam udang dgn bee hoon/bee hoon laksa.Air sarsi.Since last week kita dah pegi rumah ros,this will be d last house 4 d day lah..perut satu2 jgn ckp lah.Mcm ngandung kerbau.Macam2 khazanah ada kat dalam.Dah la tu, dari siang sampai sekarang,kita amek gambar kat tiap2 rumah pasal nak post kat sini. Saya punya rosak,jadi harapkan Ros punya footage.Kalau tak jadi,bole nangis air mata darah - pasal- posing mcm nak rak,bole terbalik rumah orang..kita punya gambar tak tau lah berapa roll.Ros bwk d digicam/videocam + d old classic camera yg kena taruk felem.Tak kira lah - janji ada bukti kita jalan raye.
Akhir kata,we had FUN d whole day.I'd like to thank each of u my frenz,for being such a happening lot.I post this not to mock but as a reference and a nice keepsake 4 all of us.(u guyz know what happened the whole day, yah?!hehe)Semoga kita berSyawal lagi di lain tahun,
Salam sayang salam ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.
(will post d pics soon)

Oh..Bapa mertuaku..

2006-11-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

Last Tuesday,..mmm...how shud I say it. Supposed to send my dad-in-law to CCK Polyclinic for a review chk up. 2 wks ago, I sent him there due to an injury below his right eye. Badly bruised with an open wound.Why? Terlanggar tiang.Cause?..Alamak,ni yg berat nak cakap ni..pasal tengok orang baris kat Home Team Academy (his workplace).Jgn ketawa,jgn senyum, kalau tak, I pun turut sama.Anyway,found out dat he had hypertension too and thus,the Tues appt.Actually,kul 10am,but I asked him to come down n wait 4 me at the bstp after rec'ving my call,coz I'll pick him up by taxi. Dahlah the nite b4,he kol me mcm nak rak 2 remind me - ngalahkan budak2 excited nak g picnic.Sekali,besok,wen I wanna hail a cab,I kol mum-in-law and she said dat he oredi went out as early as 8!..
Aiyoh..dia mana ade hp,mana nak cari dia!I took a cab(kira kamikaze la),tapi dia takde kat pickup point. I JLN KAKI IN THE SCORCHING MORNING HEAT to Keat Hong,Supersave,ST 41,2 cari dia. Tak adak!M-i-l da bingit. I LAGI bingit.So,took another cab to Poly.Dlm ati,kalau takde, I balik ah..Sekali,wen enquired kat reception, dia dah registered himself and now waiting at rm 54.I bedesup naik atas,to look for him,only to be greeted /scolded by him from afar,:
" Oi!! Ngkau ke mana!!????" Dia pekik kuat orang seme tengok kat muka I yang dah mcm nak rebas orang tua ni..(sori,bak..panggilan manja aje ni..)I excused my self to pegi to where he's seated.Nak pukul tak bole, I pun terus salam.Nasib baik,bole control..kita tanya dia,dia marah kita balik.Org tanya nape gi pagi2, dia kata "abey aku nak minum dulu.." hai.....apa nak cakap lagi? Busuk2 pun, orang tua....tapi dalam hati yang tgh menggelegak time tu, berbisik pula : "Biar Allah saja yang tahu, dear bapak mertua ku...."

A Celebration 2 remember!

2006-11-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

I couldn't describe today. The feeling of being thoroughly pampered overwhelmed me thru n thru.Thot that this year,it's gonna be the same like the years b4..my bday wud be just another day passing by.Instead I went for a gathering/Raya lunch @ the floating resto in Kg Melayu,by EDN Media Publishing.Since its strictly by invitation only, I went alone.Ate what I could fm the rather simple yet delectable little buffet.There was a live accoustic performance by 3 musicians: guitarist,flutist-cum-violinist and a rebana-ist.(Aper ntah..)I thot the guitarist played quite well,expressing his music thru his smiling eyes.When he began to sing, I was like..OMG! He sounded EXACTLY like my luncai emas!(M Nasir lah..)When we queried,he turned out to be Zainal, M Nasir's 3rd bro!That explains it..(Eh..he quite cute tau.The smile looks sincere..I hope it is!)Then I went home at abt 6,to a decent-looking tidied house,adorned with balloons,(!),courtesy of my 2 girls and their cuzzins,Yah & Ina.Surprise,surprise!There's a bday cake too(heavily laden with choco).We had a little 'party' and I, FOR THE VERY 1ST TIME,blew a candle!..I know,I know,they said it's not gud but hey!what the heck! secara suka-suka je..no negative motive.
My 2 girls + the cuzzins bought me gifts,wrapping helped by another niece-Ijan.(Thx,dear!)I got a Mom & Dad mugs,and a bear-bear,named.......CHUBBY!..I swear it is the name sewn/embroided beside his butt.SOOOOO CUUUUUUUUTTTE!.Will post e pics soon as my eyes are watering now...wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzz....1st.

18th November..a historic day

2006-11-18T10:57:00.001+08:00

18th November.... Allah telah menciptakan aku dengan sepenuh kasih sayangNya untuk mengenali dunia yang fana ini.Sesungguhnya aku redha dengan segala dugaan yang Kau berikan.Jadikanlah aku seseorang yang sentiasa bersyukur di atas segala nikmatMu dan juga rezekiMu yang dilimpahkan dari arah yang tiada disangka-sangka.Jauhilah aku daripada menjadi manusia yang sombong dengan harta keduniaan.Berilah aku ketabahan bagi setiap ranjau yang perlu aku lalui.Kurniakan aku senyuman yang dapat menadah setiap titisan airmata yang jatuh ke bumi.Ampunilah dosa insan2 yang Kau fitrahkan menjadi ayah dan ibuku.Semoga di suatu masa, mereka dapat berbangga memiliki zuriat sepertiku...

Balik Kampung!

2006-11-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

Raya @ Pontian (Saturday, 28 Oct 2006)
Rumah ayah saya

On that day, we adik beradik went to Pontian to beraye dgn Dad.Me,elder sis Icah, younger sis Lela + family chartered a van which brot us there and anywhere we wanted(asal bayar laa..)Younger sis Yanti tak ikut pasal da nak branak. Youngest Bro,Boboy,dah la tanak pegi, buat bodoooooh aje. Tunggu punya tunggu, tak de news. Geram betul. Kalau orang baru kawin, dah bole buat anak 10 tau.Fed up punya pasal, I hentam tengok SCV Ch 61 & 62.Cerita cina.Sekali movie after movie, cerita antu.Takut punya pasal, kejut husband.Dia punya ngorok, antu dengar pun,rambut gugur.So, takde choice,I tengok cartoon sampai pagi.(pasal apa tak tdo pon, tak tau..)

We set off dlm kul 7.30am. I got my big bantal bucuk yang gemuk lagi gebu with me untuk beradu dalam van. Sampai sana dlm 10am agaknya.We're warmly welcomed and I hugged Dad ever so tightly. His fatherly scent of perspiration brot back memories of my childhood growing up under his tyranny and reminded me of his years of toil in bringing me up.Whoever he may be, whatever he might be,no matter what he did to me, he'll always be my one n only daddy.And it I shall bring his name with me to my tombstone.(*sob*)And also - I hope he's proud of me..
Anywaez,my stepmum(my parents were divorced)fed us with a traditional feast of kampong dishes which we gobbled like some beastly vultures.(lapar oii..dari pagi tak makan,takut sakit perut nanti cari jamban,seksa!)Dia punya Daging Masak Kicap...YA ALLAH!!!! SUBHANALLAH!!! Sedap ya amat...

Something Sweet Something Blue

2006-11-16T19:46:00.001+08:00

One of the many wedding cakes I made, I am only able to trace this pic. The rest? I don't know. Lost in transition? Maybe.. The order was only for a simple single tier buttercream frosting with a white and blue theme.Inside? 3 layers of vanilla sponge with blueberry and white cream filling.
Mmmmm.....

Hurt lyrics

2006-11-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Januari lyrics

2006-11-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

Berat bebanku
Meninggalkanmu
Separuh nafas jiwaku
Sirna...

Bukan salahmu
Apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
Tak berpihak
Pada kita

Reff:
Kasihku
Sampai di sini kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karna kita berbeda

Dengarkan....
Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini
Melodi rintihan hati ini
Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Bridge:
Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku
Woo....pergilah

Demi Waktu lyrics

2006-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir diantara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

Dealova Lyrics

2006-11-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

reff:
kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

repeat reff [2x]

selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

Kenangan Terindah lyrics

2006-11-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Chorus :
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

All My Life Lyrics

2006-11-15T11:14:00.001+08:00

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, Ooh, I'm so glad

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you

Girl you are
Close to me, like my mother
Close to me, like my father
Close to me, like my sister
Close to me, like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And for you this song I sing, and

CHORUS

All my life
I prayed for someone like you, baby
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said, you're all that I'm thinking of
Baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby

CHORUS

You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too

CHORUS(2)

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

Aidilfitri 2006

2006-11-13T09:37:00.001+08:00

This year's hari raya is a special one for me and all - why?
becoz............. TAHUN NI SAYA TAK NGAMPUL!!(sape tak tau maknanya pegi ask around)

Special coz finally i got to round up the family to actually help out in managing the cck home.We pooled up to buy some necessities and also contributed the raya goodies + lauk. I contributed London Almond and Ayam Masak Merah. Sedaaaap..(sape nak puji kalau tak diri sendiri,ye tak?) Satu malam tak tido buat Kek Marble Yang Paling Last Minute tapi Paling Sedap Nak Mampos 4 my own mum.Then, in the raye m'ning at cck,I dozed off glamourously on the kerusi pak awang while waiting for the rest of the siblings' arrival.Managed to take a pic of the whole gang,with the exception of Mr&Mrs Ngah, yang kita tunggu mcm nak reput. Apeeerr je...

With anak2ku yang termanja

The family. Yang terpopular mesti la duduk kat tengah2..takut org tak nampak kang!

Mee Rebus Daging

2006-11-12T17:24:00.004+08:00

My fren Sally first made this and surprise,surprise,..being the cerewet(picky)person that I'm famous for, I tot it's quite good.Maybe it's the succulent daging that accompanied.What we ate outside is like a vegetarian version,just noodles,sprouts,gravy,tofu,chilli..but the TETEL (hate the pronounciation) and the daging in this brings out that carnivore in you!Be generous in that.U'll thank me.I love to add bagedil,fish sticks,or anything fancy to make sure MY mee rebus comes WITH THE WORKS!

Abok-Abok Pelangi

2006-11-12T17:24:00.003+08:00

Mee Goreng

2006-11-12T17:22:00.001+08:00

Anybody can fry noodles but not every1 will produce a taste similar to one another.Another humble dish, with lots of versions,best consumed while piping hot.I like mine to be a bit wet. Dry fried noodles will only choke u like a pandan cake eaten during a typical seminar coffee break,without any drink.

Recipe

500g yellow noodles
30cents worth of bean sprouts(taugeh la)
a bundle of sawi/chye sim/spring greens
1 carrot - julliened (cut into strips)

a bowl of shrimps/prawns-shelled,deveined
a bowl lean beef - boiled till tender,cut into chunky strips
3 pcs of fish cake - sliced
10pcs of crabstick - cut into desired lengths

Blend finely :
10 dried chillies - seeded,soaked to soften
1tbsp dried shrimps - soaked to soften
4 cloves garlic
1 big onion
1 tomato

2 tbsp tomato sauce
1 tbsp soy sauce
salt to taste

Heat sufficient oil in wok. Saute blended ingredients and fry till fragrant. Add tomato sauce,soy sauce,salt.Add shrimps,beef,fishcake,crabstick,.Stir a few mins b4 adding noodles,sprouts,carrot n veg.Stir gently juz to heat through or risk getting the noodles n veg soggy.Add some water if too dry.Turn off heat. Serve.

Sambal Ayam Serai

2006-11-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

Kari Ayam

2006-11-12T17:18:00.001+08:00

Kailan Oyster

2006-11-12T17:15:00.001+08:00

Very simple, cooked to a minimum but refreshing in taste...who said that the humble veggie is a turn off?..try this..

Recipe

A handful of baby kailan/broccoli - u can cut or leave it whole
2 cloves of garlic - crushed
1 red chilli - sliced
1 small shallot (small onion)- sliced thinly
1/2 cup oyster sauce
1 tsp sugar
1/2 tsp salt or to taste, as the oyster sauce is already salty

Boil some water in a pot.Add some salt and 1 tsp of oil. Blanch veggie for a couple of minutes. Prepare a bowl of ice cold water in the meantime.Take out veggie and dunk into the bowl to stop the cooking process. U'll get a nice green colour without overcooking yr veg. Drain well.
Next,in a wok,heat 1 tbsp of oil,mixed with a few good dashes of sesame oil. The combi of oil will produce a glaze effect on the veg later. Saute onion,garlic,chilli and add the oyster sauce.Pour a little bit of water to mix.Add some sugar and salt.Simmer till boiling,then then turn off heat. If sauce is too dilute,u may add some cornflour solution (1 dsp cornflour + 1/4 cup of water )to thicken it.Arrange veg on a plate and pour sauce over...eat it hot!

Sambal Tumis Telur

2006-11-12T17:14:00.001+08:00

This one never fail to whet my appetite on those days that u tot "apeerr...nak masak eh?"..Very classic but still strong in its standing.

Recipe

Boiled eggs - amount as according to your consumption

Blend together :
15(or more) dried chilles - seeded,soaked to soften or microwave for 10mins in a bowl of water
a really huge pinch of belachan(shrimp paste)
5-6 cloves of garlic
2-3 big onions
1 tbsp of ikan bilis(anchovies) granules

1 heaped tbsp of tamarind-add some water and knead to produce some juice
3 tbsp sugar or to taste (add more if chilli is too hot for u)
salt to taste

Heat sufficient oil in wok(it's ok if u add too much-u can always scoop it out after cooking)and saute blended ingredients.Make sure it's cooked (tumis sampai betul2 pecah minyak),stirring continuously.Add tamarind juice,sugar and salt.Add some water if u like some gravy but the consistency shudn't be too dry nor too dilute.Taste to suit yr liking. Add the bolied eggs (u may fry the boiled eggs for a more unique texture).Coat gravy over eggs and simmer for a few minutes bf turning off the heat.Serve.

Briyani Kurma Daging

2006-11-12T17:13:00.001+08:00

Ayam Masak Merah

2006-11-12T17:12:00.001+08:00

Cooked together with my nasi tomato during ramadhan. Sedaaaap..tak caya cuba ah..

Nasi Tomato

2006-11-12T16:48:00.001+08:00

My first attempt on this was so powerful,(on a boasting mode,here)with the addition that the one u see here is cooked last minute on a ramadhan evening(cannot taste,what..) for iftar - I decided that it wud be 1 of my signature dish.Best accompanied with ayam merah or rendang or anything la..but the salad is a must to cool down that gullet!

Fish n Chips

2006-11-12T16:00:00.002+08:00

One of my all time favourite - FISH & CHIPS - done in MY way.
Unlike those sold in the halal-western food joints/kopitiams, I prefer to add fresh scalded broccoli and carrots as my side veg to the usual so-called coleslaw. The Dory fish is fried tempura-style (not breaded) and topped with the classic tartar sauce,with an extra dash of crushed capers. Not forgetting, - lemons - a must to complement the entire taste.

Unfortunately for this pic, I do not have fresh potatoes so therefore I used ready-to-fry crinkle cut potatoes. Normally I'll cut the potatoes into very big chunks of wedges. And I mean REALLY big chunks. With your favourite hot chili sauce in hand, enjoy!... and don't forget to use a fork and knife,..it gives you that feeling of being at Swensens'!

Sayang Suhana

2006-11-11T13:06:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum

A warm hello to all.

In this tribunal bittersweet life, nothing stays .

So therefore, with all the reasons that led to your creation and existence,

hopefully someday you will see

that it is with LOVE, that we are breathing free....

In the years to come,

it won't matter how much money you had in the bank

what car you had been driving

what post you were holding

but...

it's the question of the quality of life and the impact that you had

for the living

Sayang Suhana

My idol from the 80's...

Saturday Nite Fever

Lights, Camera, Action!

Should I ..Shouldn't I...

Apple Bread Pudding Muffin

Crush of 1976

Ngo Oi Lei !..(find a cantonese friend to translate this)

The Quest for Buah Kana..

Night at the movies..

Hello Kelat & Julia

More stories....

Biar Pecah Di Perut

Dah 2008....!!

My Chubby-Jac

A Belated Teachers' Day

Pointing the finger..

Where's Suhana?

Cardiac Call

Festival of Ideas

Bon Joir!, Madamoisalle...

Fast Food

Hungry?

Tickets, please....

The Reunion

International Friendship Day of April

In sickness, and in health..till death do I..

Go fly kite....part 2

Go fly kite...

The Medical Report

A January Recap

Of wealth,riches and....

To part or not to part...

Memori Muharam ( part 5 and the finale )

Memori Muharam ( part 4 )

Memori Muharam ( part 3 )

Memori Muharam ( part 2 )

Memori Muharam ( part 1 )

A shoulder to cry on..

First to Bata...then to school

Its 2007 and Aidiladha 1427H! (part 2)

Its 2007 and Aidiladha 1427H!

The Sleepless Insomniac

Then and Now...

Then and Now...

The Lost December (the season finale)

The Lost December (Part 2)

The Lost December

PSG Raya 2006 photo updates

Feeling Blue ( part 2 )

Feeling Blue...

Kuala Terengganu 2006

My father in law (part 2)

FED UP!

PSG Raya 2006

Oh..Bapa mertuaku..

A Celebration 2 remember!

18th November..a historic day

Balik Kampung!

Something Sweet Something Blue

Hurt lyrics

Januari lyrics

Demi Waktu lyrics

Dealova Lyrics

Kenangan Terindah lyrics

All My Life Lyrics

Aidilfitri 2006

Mee Rebus Daging

Abok-Abok Pelangi

Mee Goreng

Sambal Ayam Serai

Kari Ayam

Kailan Oyster

Sambal Tumis Telur

Briyani Kurma Daging

Ayam Masak Merah

Nasi Tomato

Fish n Chips

Sayang Suhana