The Sleepless Insomniac

I can't sleep...I can't sleep..I can't sleep... tonite is just another one of those nites in which I habitually stay up till sunrise. I can't help it. Been like this since my school days.(well that explains my dark circles..urgh!).I kind of like to stay up to absorb the pristine tranquility of the darkness.I find the sound of silence beautiful and the mystical ink-coated sky with its sprinkle of diamond-dusted stars,together with soft,wispy clouds underlined with a touch of the moon ray, a mesmerizing sight.Indeed,...perfectly created by God for us to see.Maybe I shud work in some night-shift jobs.hehe..but seriously,while everyone is so obsessed with their 'beauty' sleep, I'm totally on the contrary.Some said that since the universe is being created with night and day,we shud apply to it subconsciously.Well,as for me, if u can appreciate the refreshing gleam of the sunshine in the day, why not admire the beauty of the pitch-dark night?..and like they say,... The sky is at its darkest before dawn...Go figure..

Then and Now...

This is an old shot of my Mum n Dad,circa mid-60s..

This particular shot of my Mum in her teens (I merged my pic here taken in my teens too)made me realize that I looked like her!...what do u think? The Indian-Malay blood mix that runs in me - rocks!!

Then and Now...

hey,hey,hey....I'm back. It's been a while since the last update.Very busy lately.Went to get my final wisdom tooth out.Still sending dad-in-law 4 his chkup, went to get myself a new nitrate. But the best part?..I FINALLY FOUND THE BLUE TILES!!! Credit goes to myself for finding it thru the NC Ceramics' website. Located at Tuas, I immdltly went there to cash-n-carry.Works hv started and tmrw will be the final day where they'll be fixing the toilet.Phew! That's quite a job,huh?

Anyway, spent the heavily-raining Sunday @ Icah's place 2 celebrate Lisa & Hamirul's b'day.Also my 1st time 2 see my latest niece Intan Marissha since she was born on 8th November. (ape punya auntie,sekarang baru jumpa..) Mom was there too. In the evening,we browsed thru some old photos and I chanced upon a few memorable ones..

This was taken when Ira was abt a year old, @ Pontian.

And this one,Adik, also abt a year old,at our old house.

The Lost December (the season finale)

..(continued from the previous,previous post..go n read them la..don be lazy...I got no choice but to post it bit by bit since blogger gave me some problems earlier..)

Anywaez,..I know that this month would go past me like a good gust of wind. Very fast, but it's breeze will leave me feeling cool and refreshed eventually.So, who said I lost my December?
Finally, a personal quote that I created:

"Time goes by so slowly for those who wait,but flies for those who can't even stay awake."
Go figure.

Salam Sayang, Salam Ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.
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Abg - if u're reading this, I thank u again for yr luv,doa,n support.

The Lost December (Part 2)

...(continued from the previous post)..This particular moan greeted me everyday like the sunrise. So did my cooking request.Gotta have food on the table everyday.Not that I dont coook.(Did I mention I was a great cook?..hehe)But food availability is like 24/7!Breakfast,lunch,dinner PLUS teabreak snacks,and dessert(homemade,I tell ya!)When I questioned " ..Dik, jgn makan banyak2...macam mana nak kurus?"...will only be answered with a melodious'..sape suruh mama masak sedap-sedap?"..(ini cakap masjid punya tau..ini budak2 memang layarburuk..apa kena-mengena dgn layarburuk,pun tak tau...)Complain or compliment? Good cook or bad dietician?Nak marah ke nak besar hati? U decide..And then there were the sibling wrestlings..*headache* macam 'Celebrity Death Match'..There are times when we love them to be around the house during the holidays but SOMEtimes,they make me go bonkers!However,there was a time when Ira n her sis(God bless them) cooked for the family when I was ill.YES.Stove-cooking.Nothing beats that blissful feeling in my heart when all the things you taught were applied into good use -and- in times of need.(Luv u ,girls!)

Initially, I thot NOTHING superb happened this month..but what I said above actually IS THE ESSENCE of it all!..Sending my in-laws for their chkup made me think of how fragile we could get in our greying years, I learned how to care for chronic illnesses, and appreciate their existence. The quality time I spent with the kids could very well be the envy of some working mothers.Being ill made me witness the culinary skills hidden under my girls.Tutoring them myself proved 2 be blessful when they came back with fruitful results.It dawned on me on how true the saying in the OST of HIKMAH that went : "..aku percaya, tiada yang sia-sia...semua 'kan ada hikmahnya.."...and for all that, sesungguhnya aku bersyukur..

The Lost December

I'm trying to stay sober while posting this..not sober as in 'sober' but as in stayin alert. Since my last update, I was - how shud I say this - not exactly in the pink of health. Only God knows what happened to me. It might sound paranoid but for a moment I thot my life journey ends here,(astaghfirullah) but now, I can say that I am back up to my feet again.(alhamdulillah)-well at least for now(insyaAllah)
*thank you my beloved sayang, for your doa*
enuff said

I'd like to say something about this month.We are now basking (well at least for some of us) in the final school holidays for the year.Come a couple of weeks later, school reopens and off we go again, kids and stay-at-home mums alike. Rush!Rush!
Looking back,what did I do during the holidays?..Let's do a quick recap..

I can say it's been almost every week,alternately,I wud be sending my in-laws for their medical checkup,..heavy rain,..my medical checkup,...tutoring the kids for their madrasah exams,...rain again,..kids camp,..endless chores,...whining and hunting for my blue tiles,...prepare house for the HDB repair works,..hunting for school books in which I dont understand why there's a tendency of them being out of stock,..more rain,..more checkups,..and SUDDENLY,..lo and behold, it's end of the year and u can almost hear takbir Aidiladha.(Allahu Akbar!)
I was like...whoa!...slow down,little clock.I haven't even bring out the kids for outings - I repeat outings -not holidays. Going on a holiday in December means risking yrself and yr luggage to be drenched!
Flashback..I remembered I was so excited when school ended on my b'day last month..
I thot: no more fuss n rush in the morning, no more uniform ironing, no more school allowances, more relaxation..not bad rite?..W-R-O-N-G!
Bcuz...suddenly, I heard a voice that went:"Mama..boring ah...makan dah,tengok tv dah,main computer dah, abey adik nak buat ape lagi?"

PSG Raya 2006 photo updates

To my PSG frenz, I am only uploading half of the pics that we took that day. The other half is still with Ros..inside her digicam. Will update the rest once I can cable up her cam into my laptop. Relive these pics for the moment..

Feeling Blue ( part 2 )

As mentioned, I went to WHC to find some tiles. Was pretty amazed with the vast display of choice that even tempted me to actually change the whole toilet...but hold on....WHAT!..NO BLUE!...what in the world is happening here?!! Most of the colours are earth-toned,shocking yellows but..NO BLUE?..The blue they had semua yang stail poster colour kering punya.Ya Allah!!..I rounded the place a few times to make sure I'm not being taken for a ride but true enuff,..that's abt it!The darkest blue tiles tu pun under the phased out section. The rest are light blue..A feeling of rage began to engulf me but was quickly put out by Ipin. The kids were whining for us to get a total makeover of the toilet. I must say I was quite..no..VERY tempted too..but gotta stick w the budget. I still hv abt a couple of weeks more to hunt.Thot of scouting for it at some other places. But the disappointment of not succeeding it in the first place seemed to bring down my morale.I was thinking what if I couldn't find it anywhere? WHY am I so obsessed with a blue toilet , u asked? I do no..maybe the colour gives me a sense of coolness while 'sweating' our yr business.hehe..Guess I'll have to make do with what was offered to me until I could come up with the full budget to come up with a whole new toilet. In this process,it dawned on me on how PRECIOUS the room is to me. Besides a venue for our 'biological exports', it is one of the most highly-utilized room in the house that one could ever have.And therefore, do not underestimate its purpose,make an investment,make it pleasing to your eyes,make it dear to you as much as I do - as you're gonna find yourself sitting in there everyday,urgently or not,for the rest of your life.

Feeling Blue...

It's been abt a couple of years my neighbour below complained of a leakage on their kitchen ceiling,leading to the bathroom. Investigations from the HDB showed no signs of source from us but maybe due to the age-old condition of our block,I was 'forced' to agree to repair/change my kitchen toilet's floor tiles. But when they showed me some of the sample tiles, I was like - WHAT!!! A VERY PALE-LIFELESS-ALMOST-WHITE-BLUE TO REPLACE MY COBALT BLUE???? And worse,they only have that under the blue tone..the rest are all hidup-segan-mati-tak-mau punya colours.AAAARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! Punya tension!The contractors who came to negotiate with me n ipin were taken aback with my snobbish,over the top,attitude. Who cares!Even if I'm to pay half of the goodwill repair scheme,I still have to at least be given a colour that actually matches with the rest of my ice-cool-blue toilet theme!Dorang salah orang la nak suruh I membabi buta (apasal nama babi ni asik jadi mangsa kata2 bidalan , eh?) nak suka2 agree to sign up for whatever that's being offered. I mesti tekan balik punya la. Dorang tak tau I ni Complain Queen yang tersohor kat sini.But they said since they are under contract with HDB,they can only offer a limited number of tile samples.If I want my own,I'll have to bear the cost.
O K A Y LAH...
Even if I hv to fork out a bit more,I've decided to hunt for my own tiles. Bukan ngada2..but I can't imagine having that colour yang mcm seluar dalam putih terkena nila sikit tu to be my toilet floor. Urgh! (ni step kerek ah..)So,the works will commence around 19th Dec. Today,I'm gonna go to Sungei Kadut (alamak...nama pun,tak hensem..)..maybe to White Horse Ceramics (bukan kuda kat kranji ah...)to look for a closer colour..Wish me luck! Kalau tak dapat,I gegar factory2 batu kat situ.Factory batu punya banyak satu Singapore,takkan satu pun takde colour yg I nak?..Takpe..tunggukan keputusannya...

Kuala Terengganu 2006

Oh...where do I even begin this story about the trip! Lets see...