The Sleepless Insomniac

I can't sleep...I can't sleep..I can't sleep... tonite is just another one of those nites in which I habitually stay up till sunrise. I can't help it. Been like this since my school days.(well that explains my dark circles..urgh!).I kind of like to stay up to absorb the pristine tranquility of the darkness.I find the sound of silence beautiful and the mystical ink-coated sky with its sprinkle of diamond-dusted stars,together with soft,wispy clouds underlined with a touch of the moon ray, a mesmerizing sight.Indeed,...perfectly created by God for us to see.Maybe I shud work in some night-shift jobs.hehe..but seriously,while everyone is so obsessed with their 'beauty' sleep, I'm totally on the contrary.Some said that since the universe is being created with night and day,we shud apply to it subconsciously.Well,as for me, if u can appreciate the refreshing gleam of the sunshine in the day, why not admire the beauty of the pitch-dark night?..and like they say,... The sky is at its darkest before dawn...Go figure..

Then and Now...

This is an old shot of my Mum n Dad,circa mid-60s..

This particular shot of my Mum in her teens (I merged my pic here taken in my teens too)made me realize that I looked like her!...what do u think? The Indian-Malay blood mix that runs in me - rocks!!

Then and Now...

hey,hey,hey....I'm back. It's been a while since the last update.Very busy lately.Went to get my final wisdom tooth out.Still sending dad-in-law 4 his chkup, went to get myself a new nitrate. But the best part?..I FINALLY FOUND THE BLUE TILES!!! Credit goes to myself for finding it thru the NC Ceramics' website. Located at Tuas, I immdltly went there to cash-n-carry.Works hv started and tmrw will be the final day where they'll be fixing the toilet.Phew! That's quite a job,huh?

Anyway, spent the heavily-raining Sunday @ Icah's place 2 celebrate Lisa & Hamirul's b'day.Also my 1st time 2 see my latest niece Intan Marissha since she was born on 8th November. (ape punya auntie,sekarang baru jumpa..) Mom was there too. In the evening,we browsed thru some old photos and I chanced upon a few memorable ones..

This was taken when Ira was abt a year old, @ Pontian.

And this one,Adik, also abt a year old,at our old house.

The Lost December (the season finale)

..(continued from the previous,previous post..go n read them la..don be lazy...I got no choice but to post it bit by bit since blogger gave me some problems earlier..)

Anywaez,..I know that this month would go past me like a good gust of wind. Very fast, but it's breeze will leave me feeling cool and refreshed eventually.So, who said I lost my December?
Finally, a personal quote that I created:

"Time goes by so slowly for those who wait,but flies for those who can't even stay awake."
Go figure.

Salam Sayang, Salam Ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.
__________________________________
Abg - if u're reading this, I thank u again for yr luv,doa,n support.

The Lost December (Part 2)

...(continued from the previous post)..This particular moan greeted me everyday like the sunrise. So did my cooking request.Gotta have food on the table everyday.Not that I dont coook.(Did I mention I was a great cook?..hehe)But food availability is like 24/7!Breakfast,lunch,dinner PLUS teabreak snacks,and dessert(homemade,I tell ya!)When I questioned " ..Dik, jgn makan banyak2...macam mana nak kurus?"...will only be answered with a melodious'..sape suruh mama masak sedap-sedap?"..(ini cakap masjid punya tau..ini budak2 memang layarburuk..apa kena-mengena dgn layarburuk,pun tak tau...)Complain or compliment? Good cook or bad dietician?Nak marah ke nak besar hati? U decide..And then there were the sibling wrestlings..*headache* macam 'Celebrity Death Match'..There are times when we love them to be around the house during the holidays but SOMEtimes,they make me go bonkers!However,there was a time when Ira n her sis(God bless them) cooked for the family when I was ill.YES.Stove-cooking.Nothing beats that blissful feeling in my heart when all the things you taught were applied into good use -and- in times of need.(Luv u ,girls!)

Initially, I thot NOTHING superb happened this month..but what I said above actually IS THE ESSENCE of it all!..Sending my in-laws for their chkup made me think of how fragile we could get in our greying years, I learned how to care for chronic illnesses, and appreciate their existence. The quality time I spent with the kids could very well be the envy of some working mothers.Being ill made me witness the culinary skills hidden under my girls.Tutoring them myself proved 2 be blessful when they came back with fruitful results.It dawned on me on how true the saying in the OST of HIKMAH that went : "..aku percaya, tiada yang sia-sia...semua 'kan ada hikmahnya.."...and for all that, sesungguhnya aku bersyukur..

The Lost December

I'm trying to stay sober while posting this..not sober as in 'sober' but as in stayin alert. Since my last update, I was - how shud I say this - not exactly in the pink of health. Only God knows what happened to me. It might sound paranoid but for a moment I thot my life journey ends here,(astaghfirullah) but now, I can say that I am back up to my feet again.(alhamdulillah)-well at least for now(insyaAllah)
*thank you my beloved sayang, for your doa*
enuff said

I'd like to say something about this month.We are now basking (well at least for some of us) in the final school holidays for the year.Come a couple of weeks later, school reopens and off we go again, kids and stay-at-home mums alike. Rush!Rush!
Looking back,what did I do during the holidays?..Let's do a quick recap..

I can say it's been almost every week,alternately,I wud be sending my in-laws for their medical checkup,..heavy rain,..my medical checkup,...tutoring the kids for their madrasah exams,...rain again,..kids camp,..endless chores,...whining and hunting for my blue tiles,...prepare house for the HDB repair works,..hunting for school books in which I dont understand why there's a tendency of them being out of stock,..more rain,..more checkups,..and SUDDENLY,..lo and behold, it's end of the year and u can almost hear takbir Aidiladha.(Allahu Akbar!)
I was like...whoa!...slow down,little clock.I haven't even bring out the kids for outings - I repeat outings -not holidays. Going on a holiday in December means risking yrself and yr luggage to be drenched!
Flashback..I remembered I was so excited when school ended on my b'day last month..
I thot: no more fuss n rush in the morning, no more uniform ironing, no more school allowances, more relaxation..not bad rite?..W-R-O-N-G!
Bcuz...suddenly, I heard a voice that went:"Mama..boring ah...makan dah,tengok tv dah,main computer dah, abey adik nak buat ape lagi?"

PSG Raya 2006 photo updates

To my PSG frenz, I am only uploading half of the pics that we took that day. The other half is still with Ros..inside her digicam. Will update the rest once I can cable up her cam into my laptop. Relive these pics for the moment..

Feeling Blue ( part 2 )

As mentioned, I went to WHC to find some tiles. Was pretty amazed with the vast display of choice that even tempted me to actually change the whole toilet...but hold on....WHAT!..NO BLUE!...what in the world is happening here?!! Most of the colours are earth-toned,shocking yellows but..NO BLUE?..The blue they had semua yang stail poster colour kering punya.Ya Allah!!..I rounded the place a few times to make sure I'm not being taken for a ride but true enuff,..that's abt it!The darkest blue tiles tu pun under the phased out section. The rest are light blue..A feeling of rage began to engulf me but was quickly put out by Ipin. The kids were whining for us to get a total makeover of the toilet. I must say I was quite..no..VERY tempted too..but gotta stick w the budget. I still hv abt a couple of weeks more to hunt.Thot of scouting for it at some other places. But the disappointment of not succeeding it in the first place seemed to bring down my morale.I was thinking what if I couldn't find it anywhere? WHY am I so obsessed with a blue toilet , u asked? I do no..maybe the colour gives me a sense of coolness while 'sweating' our yr business.hehe..Guess I'll have to make do with what was offered to me until I could come up with the full budget to come up with a whole new toilet. In this process,it dawned on me on how PRECIOUS the room is to me. Besides a venue for our 'biological exports', it is one of the most highly-utilized room in the house that one could ever have.And therefore, do not underestimate its purpose,make an investment,make it pleasing to your eyes,make it dear to you as much as I do - as you're gonna find yourself sitting in there everyday,urgently or not,for the rest of your life.

Feeling Blue...

It's been abt a couple of years my neighbour below complained of a leakage on their kitchen ceiling,leading to the bathroom. Investigations from the HDB showed no signs of source from us but maybe due to the age-old condition of our block,I was 'forced' to agree to repair/change my kitchen toilet's floor tiles. But when they showed me some of the sample tiles, I was like - WHAT!!! A VERY PALE-LIFELESS-ALMOST-WHITE-BLUE TO REPLACE MY COBALT BLUE???? And worse,they only have that under the blue tone..the rest are all hidup-segan-mati-tak-mau punya colours.AAAARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! Punya tension!The contractors who came to negotiate with me n ipin were taken aback with my snobbish,over the top,attitude. Who cares!Even if I'm to pay half of the goodwill repair scheme,I still have to at least be given a colour that actually matches with the rest of my ice-cool-blue toilet theme!Dorang salah orang la nak suruh I membabi buta (apasal nama babi ni asik jadi mangsa kata2 bidalan , eh?) nak suka2 agree to sign up for whatever that's being offered. I mesti tekan balik punya la. Dorang tak tau I ni Complain Queen yang tersohor kat sini.But they said since they are under contract with HDB,they can only offer a limited number of tile samples.If I want my own,I'll have to bear the cost.
O K A Y LAH...
Even if I hv to fork out a bit more,I've decided to hunt for my own tiles. Bukan ngada2..but I can't imagine having that colour yang mcm seluar dalam putih terkena nila sikit tu to be my toilet floor. Urgh! (ni step kerek ah..)So,the works will commence around 19th Dec. Today,I'm gonna go to Sungei Kadut (alamak...nama pun,tak hensem..)..maybe to White Horse Ceramics (bukan kuda kat kranji ah...)to look for a closer colour..Wish me luck! Kalau tak dapat,I gegar factory2 batu kat situ.Factory batu punya banyak satu Singapore,takkan satu pun takde colour yg I nak?..Takpe..tunggukan keputusannya...

Kuala Terengganu 2006

Oh...where do I even begin this story about the trip! Lets see...

My father in law (part 2)

Konon2, this was my face while looking for him around CCK. Muka kena matahari(ini petikan muka fed up time kat terengganu..oh ya..terenggau..I'll post abt that trip soon..but for now,anyway,) look at my father in law.?
Just wanna intro him....looks angelic rite?..but can sometimes make us craack n crumble with his gelagat....*sigh*
HOWEVER,....I LUV U, BAK!(kalau my mum in law kan, dia panggil Bah-ngkau!)


Kalau tau hari tu panas, pakai mcm ni lagi baik...

FED UP!

Been struggling to publish my post - but to no avail. Wat hpned????

PSG Raya 2006

On wednesday,22nd Nov,our PSG(Parent Support Group) cum Taman Bacaan mothers berjalan raye.Oh ya,4 those who do no,I am very active in the school's PSG,currently the In-charge of the Taman Bacaan (Malay LSP Programme)with a team of members.Have been in this for 3 years and counting.Great support from my mates.So,every raya we jalan2 collection.This year lambat sikit due to the exams and stuff. Consisting of myself,Ros,Azlina aka Adek,Nor,Sally,Sahmah, and a new member Kak Yati.Kak Normah couldn't join us - babysit somebody.(Why do they call it babysit anyway? Do we SIT on the baby?..duh..)Anywaez...our kids also joined us.Takpayah ckp berapa byk la..cukup to goncang dunia punya..
1st stop - Kak Yati's place. Served roti kirai/jala/renjis plus kari daging.Lupa nak tanya daging ape tapi ini di tanggung halal punya lah.Ada goreng pisang or ada org ckp,pisang goreng.Pisangnya jenis tanduk.(Baguuuuuuuusss...)Air oren gas.I tak dpt jamah roti kirai pasal tinggal brape keping je dok dibaham kekawan yg lain.(Any of u reading this, u know who u are!..hehe..)So,I telan itu banana sama air oren.Good combination?...Burp!!
2nd stop - Sahmah's place.Served nasi ayam and sambal udang.Air..eh..lupa lah. Aku tak minum rupanya..apa lah Mah..!Kuih pun lat lat tinggal itu je.
3rd stop - Sally's place.On the way 2 her house,basah sey kita kena hujan rahmat yang lebat ya amat merentas dari rumah sahmah to the nearest bustop.Takpe..air aje ape.Served murtabak crackers.Kes Mami Bon punya resepi la.Air teh/Milo,ada koktel jugak.Kat sini,Adek dgn aku berlumba sape boleh melepas dulu..(what goes in,must come out whaaat...ape nak malu..sape yg suka simpan,tu kira simpan najis tau namanya..hehe)
4th stop - Rumah Datin Seri la..sapo lagi.I served kari ayam pekat melekat untuk dicecah dgn roti perancis.Ada epok2 TJ.(Bukan promosi-setakat honest,beli kat Prime)Ada salad timun,telur,tomato-ah..ni buat sendiri tapi telur tu ayam punya kerje..Air Fruit Punch yg lazat membasahi tekak kawan2ku yg da penat terkekek ketawa.Satu dram oi!
5th stop - Nor's place.Penat tau.Jalan kaki.Da berat tabuk(perut) satu2,..kena jalan.Adik tak ikut pasal tu rumah akak dia sendiri.Dia balik terus dulu pasal baru nak masak berserta cuba untuk melepas..kat rumah sally dgn i, she failed to let go.Anyway,we're served with mee goreng siam...eh..ke..mee siam goreng?..ah same la tu..Air,sama dgn saya punya.
6th stop - Adik's place.Served tomyam udang dgn bee hoon/bee hoon laksa.Air sarsi.Since last week kita dah pegi rumah ros,this will be d last house 4 d day lah..perut satu2 jgn ckp lah.Mcm ngandung kerbau.Macam2 khazanah ada kat dalam.Dah la tu, dari siang sampai sekarang,kita amek gambar kat tiap2 rumah pasal nak post kat sini. Saya punya rosak,jadi harapkan Ros punya footage.Kalau tak jadi,bole nangis air mata darah - pasal- posing mcm nak rak,bole terbalik rumah orang..kita punya gambar tak tau lah berapa roll.Ros bwk d digicam/videocam + d old classic camera yg kena taruk felem.Tak kira lah - janji ada bukti kita jalan raye.
Akhir kata,we had FUN d whole day.I'd like to thank each of u my frenz,for being such a happening lot.I post this not to mock but as a reference and a nice keepsake 4 all of us.(u guyz know what happened the whole day, yah?!hehe)Semoga kita berSyawal lagi di lain tahun,
Salam sayang salam ukhwah,
Sayang Suhana.
(will post d pics soon)

Oh..Bapa mertuaku..

Last Tuesday,..mmm...how shud I say it. Supposed to send my dad-in-law to CCK Polyclinic for a review chk up. 2 wks ago, I sent him there due to an injury below his right eye. Badly bruised with an open wound.Why? Terlanggar tiang.Cause?..Alamak,ni yg berat nak cakap ni..pasal tengok orang baris kat Home Team Academy (his workplace).Jgn ketawa,jgn senyum, kalau tak, I pun turut sama.Anyway,found out dat he had hypertension too and thus,the Tues appt.Actually,kul 10am,but I asked him to come down n wait 4 me at the bstp after rec'ving my call,coz I'll pick him up by taxi. Dahlah the nite b4,he kol me mcm nak rak 2 remind me - ngalahkan budak2 excited nak g picnic.Sekali,besok,wen I wanna hail a cab,I kol mum-in-law and she said dat he oredi went out as early as 8!..
Aiyoh..dia mana ade hp,mana nak cari dia!I took a cab(kira kamikaze la),tapi dia takde kat pickup point. I JLN KAKI IN THE SCORCHING MORNING HEAT to Keat Hong,Supersave,ST 41,2 cari dia. Tak adak!M-i-l da bingit. I LAGI bingit.So,took another cab to Poly.Dlm ati,kalau takde, I balik ah..Sekali,wen enquired kat reception, dia dah registered himself and now waiting at rm 54.I bedesup naik atas,to look for him,only to be greeted /scolded by him from afar,:
" Oi!! Ngkau ke mana!!????" Dia pekik kuat orang seme tengok kat muka I yang dah mcm nak rebas orang tua ni..(sori,bak..panggilan manja aje ni..)I excused my self to pegi to where he's seated.Nak pukul tak bole, I pun terus salam.Nasib baik,bole control..kita tanya dia,dia marah kita balik.Org tanya nape gi pagi2, dia kata "abey aku nak minum dulu.." hai.....apa nak cakap lagi? Busuk2 pun, orang tua....tapi dalam hati yang tgh menggelegak time tu, berbisik pula : "Biar Allah saja yang tahu, dear bapak mertua ku...."

A Celebration 2 remember!

I couldn't describe today. The feeling of being thoroughly pampered overwhelmed me thru n thru.Thot that this year,it's gonna be the same like the years b4..my bday wud be just another day passing by.Instead I went for a gathering/Raya lunch @ the floating resto in Kg Melayu,by EDN Media Publishing.Since its strictly by invitation only, I went alone.Ate what I could fm the rather simple yet delectable little buffet.There was a live accoustic performance by 3 musicians: guitarist,flutist-cum-violinist and a rebana-ist.(Aper ntah..)I thot the guitarist played quite well,expressing his music thru his smiling eyes.When he began to sing, I was like..OMG! He sounded EXACTLY like my luncai emas!(M Nasir lah..)When we queried,he turned out to be Zainal, M Nasir's 3rd bro!That explains it..(Eh..he quite cute tau.The smile looks sincere..I hope it is!)Then I went home at abt 6,to a decent-looking tidied house,adorned with balloons,(!),courtesy of my 2 girls and their cuzzins,Yah & Ina.Surprise,surprise!There's a bday cake too(heavily laden with choco).We had a little 'party' and I, FOR THE VERY 1ST TIME,blew a candle!..I know,I know,they said it's not gud but hey!what the heck! secara suka-suka je..no negative motive.
My 2 girls + the cuzzins bought me gifts,wrapping helped by another niece-Ijan.(Thx,dear!)I got a Mom & Dad mugs,and a bear-bear,named.......CHUBBY!..I swear it is the name sewn/embroided beside his butt.SOOOOO CUUUUUUUUTTTE!.Will post e pics soon as my eyes are watering now...wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzz....1st.

18th November..a historic day

18th November.... Allah telah menciptakan aku dengan sepenuh kasih sayangNya untuk mengenali dunia yang fana ini.Sesungguhnya aku redha dengan segala dugaan yang Kau berikan.Jadikanlah aku seseorang yang sentiasa bersyukur di atas segala nikmatMu dan juga rezekiMu yang dilimpahkan dari arah yang tiada disangka-sangka.Jauhilah aku daripada menjadi manusia yang sombong dengan harta keduniaan.Berilah aku ketabahan bagi setiap ranjau yang perlu aku lalui.Kurniakan aku senyuman yang dapat menadah setiap titisan airmata yang jatuh ke bumi.Ampunilah dosa insan2 yang Kau fitrahkan menjadi ayah dan ibuku.Semoga di suatu masa, mereka dapat berbangga memiliki zuriat sepertiku...

Balik Kampung!

Raya @ Pontian (Saturday, 28 Oct 2006)
Rumah ayah saya

On that day, we adik beradik went to Pontian to beraye dgn Dad.Me,elder sis Icah, younger sis Lela + family chartered a van which brot us there and anywhere we wanted(asal bayar laa..)Younger sis Yanti tak ikut pasal da nak branak. Youngest Bro,Boboy,dah la tanak pegi, buat bodoooooh aje. Tunggu punya tunggu, tak de news. Geram betul. Kalau orang baru kawin, dah bole buat anak 10 tau.Fed up punya pasal, I hentam tengok SCV Ch 61 & 62.Cerita cina.Sekali movie after movie, cerita antu.Takut punya pasal, kejut husband.Dia punya ngorok, antu dengar pun,rambut gugur.So, takde choice,I tengok cartoon sampai pagi.(pasal apa tak tdo pon, tak tau..)

We set off dlm kul 7.30am. I got my big bantal bucuk yang gemuk lagi gebu with me untuk beradu dalam van. Sampai sana dlm 10am agaknya.We're warmly welcomed and I hugged Dad ever so tightly. His fatherly scent of perspiration brot back memories of my childhood growing up under his tyranny and reminded me of his years of toil in bringing me up.Whoever he may be, whatever he might be,no matter what he did to me, he'll always be my one n only daddy.And it I shall bring his name with me to my tombstone.(*sob*)And also - I hope he's proud of me..
Anywaez,my stepmum(my parents were divorced)fed us with a traditional feast of kampong dishes which we gobbled like some beastly vultures.(lapar oii..dari pagi tak makan,takut sakit perut nanti cari jamban,seksa!)Dia punya Daging Masak Kicap...YA ALLAH!!!! SUBHANALLAH!!! Sedap ya amat...

Something Sweet Something Blue

One of the many wedding cakes I made, I am only able to trace this pic. The rest? I don't know. Lost in transition? Maybe.. The order was only for a simple single tier buttercream frosting with a white and blue theme.Inside? 3 layers of vanilla sponge with blueberry and white cream filling.
Mmmmm.....

Hurt lyrics

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Januari lyrics

Berat bebanku
Meninggalkanmu
Separuh nafas jiwaku
Sirna...

Bukan salahmu
Apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
Tak berpihak
Pada kita

Reff:
Kasihku
Sampai di sini kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karna kita berbeda

Dengarkan....
Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini
Melodi rintihan hati ini
Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Bridge:
Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku
Woo....pergilah

Demi Waktu lyrics

Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir diantara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

Dealova Lyrics

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

reff:
kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

repeat reff [2x]

selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

Kenangan Terindah lyrics

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Chorus :
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

All My Life Lyrics

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, Ooh, I'm so glad

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you

Girl you are
Close to me, like my mother
Close to me, like my father
Close to me, like my sister
Close to me, like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And for you this song I sing, and

CHORUS

All my life
I prayed for someone like you, baby
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said, you're all that I'm thinking of
Baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby

CHORUS

You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too

CHORUS(2)

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

Aidilfitri 2006

This year's hari raya is a special one for me and all - why?
becoz............. TAHUN NI SAYA TAK NGAMPUL!!(sape tak tau maknanya pegi ask around)

Special coz finally i got to round up the family to actually help out in managing the cck home.We pooled up to buy some necessities and also contributed the raya goodies + lauk. I contributed London Almond and Ayam Masak Merah. Sedaaaap..(sape nak puji kalau tak diri sendiri,ye tak?) Satu malam tak tido buat Kek Marble Yang Paling Last Minute tapi Paling Sedap Nak Mampos 4 my own mum.Then, in the raye m'ning at cck,I dozed off glamourously on the kerusi pak awang while waiting for the rest of the siblings' arrival.Managed to take a pic of the whole gang,with the exception of Mr&Mrs Ngah, yang kita tunggu mcm nak reput. Apeeerr je...

With anak2ku yang termanja


The family. Yang terpopular mesti la duduk kat tengah2..takut org tak nampak kang!

Mee Rebus Daging

My fren Sally first made this and surprise,surprise,..being the cerewet(picky)person that I'm famous for, I tot it's quite good.Maybe it's the succulent daging that accompanied.What we ate outside is like a vegetarian version,just noodles,sprouts,gravy,tofu,chilli..but the TETEL (hate the pronounciation) and the daging in this brings out that carnivore in you!Be generous in that.U'll thank me.I love to add bagedil,fish sticks,or anything fancy to make sure MY mee rebus comes WITH THE WORKS!

Abok-Abok Pelangi

Mee Goreng

Anybody can fry noodles but not every1 will produce a taste similar to one another.Another humble dish, with lots of versions,best consumed while piping hot.I like mine to be a bit wet. Dry fried noodles will only choke u like a pandan cake eaten during a typical seminar coffee break,without any drink.

Recipe

500g yellow noodles
30cents worth of bean sprouts(taugeh la)
a bundle of sawi/chye sim/spring greens
1 carrot - julliened (cut into strips)

a bowl of shrimps/prawns-shelled,deveined
a bowl lean beef - boiled till tender,cut into chunky strips
3 pcs of fish cake - sliced
10pcs of crabstick - cut into desired lengths

Blend finely :
10 dried chillies - seeded,soaked to soften
1tbsp dried shrimps - soaked to soften
4 cloves garlic
1 big onion
1 tomato

2 tbsp tomato sauce
1 tbsp soy sauce
salt to taste

Heat sufficient oil in wok. Saute blended ingredients and fry till fragrant. Add tomato sauce,soy sauce,salt.Add shrimps,beef,fishcake,crabstick,.Stir a few mins b4 adding noodles,sprouts,carrot n veg.Stir gently juz to heat through or risk getting the noodles n veg soggy.Add some water if too dry.Turn off heat. Serve.

Sambal Ayam Serai

Kari Ayam

Kailan Oyster

Very simple, cooked to a minimum but refreshing in taste...who said that the humble veggie is a turn off?..try this..

Recipe

A handful of baby kailan/broccoli - u can cut or leave it whole
2 cloves of garlic - crushed
1 red chilli - sliced
1 small shallot (small onion)- sliced thinly
1/2 cup oyster sauce
1 tsp sugar
1/2 tsp salt or to taste, as the oyster sauce is already salty

Boil some water in a pot.Add some salt and 1 tsp of oil. Blanch veggie for a couple of minutes. Prepare a bowl of ice cold water in the meantime.Take out veggie and dunk into the bowl to stop the cooking process. U'll get a nice green colour without overcooking yr veg. Drain well.
Next,in a wok,heat 1 tbsp of oil,mixed with a few good dashes of sesame oil. The combi of oil will produce a glaze effect on the veg later. Saute onion,garlic,chilli and add the oyster sauce.Pour a little bit of water to mix.Add some sugar and salt.Simmer till boiling,then then turn off heat. If sauce is too dilute,u may add some cornflour solution (1 dsp cornflour + 1/4 cup of water )to thicken it.Arrange veg on a plate and pour sauce over...eat it hot!

Sambal Tumis Telur

This one never fail to whet my appetite on those days that u tot "apeerr...nak masak eh?"..Very classic but still strong in its standing.

Recipe

Boiled eggs - amount as according to your consumption

Blend together :
15(or more) dried chilles - seeded,soaked to soften or microwave for 10mins in a bowl of water
a really huge pinch of belachan(shrimp paste)
5-6 cloves of garlic
2-3 big onions
1 tbsp of ikan bilis(anchovies) granules

1 heaped tbsp of tamarind-add some water and knead to produce some juice
3 tbsp sugar or to taste (add more if chilli is too hot for u)
salt to taste

Heat sufficient oil in wok(it's ok if u add too much-u can always scoop it out after cooking)and saute blended ingredients.Make sure it's cooked (tumis sampai betul2 pecah minyak),stirring continuously.Add tamarind juice,sugar and salt.Add some water if u like some gravy but the consistency shudn't be too dry nor too dilute.Taste to suit yr liking. Add the bolied eggs (u may fry the boiled eggs for a more unique texture).Coat gravy over eggs and simmer for a few minutes bf turning off the heat.Serve.

Briyani Kurma Daging

Ayam Masak Merah

Cooked together with my nasi tomato during ramadhan. Sedaaaap..tak caya cuba ah..

Nasi Tomato

My first attempt on this was so powerful,(on a boasting mode,here)with the addition that the one u see here is cooked last minute on a ramadhan evening(cannot taste,what..) for iftar - I decided that it wud be 1 of my signature dish.Best accompanied with ayam merah or rendang or anything la..but the salad is a must to cool down that gullet!

Fish n Chips

One of my all time favourite - FISH & CHIPS - done in MY way.
Unlike those sold in the halal-western food joints/kopitiams, I prefer to add fresh scalded broccoli and carrots as my side veg to the usual so-called coleslaw. The Dory fish is fried tempura-style (not breaded) and topped with the classic tartar sauce,with an extra dash of crushed capers. Not forgetting, - lemons - a must to complement the entire taste.

Unfortunately for this pic, I do not have fresh potatoes so therefore I used ready-to-fry crinkle cut potatoes. Normally I'll cut the potatoes into very big chunks of wedges. And I mean REALLY big chunks. With your favourite hot chili sauce in hand, enjoy!... and don't forget to use a fork and knife,..it gives you that feeling of being at Swensens'!

Sayang Suhana

Assalamualaikum

A warm hello to all.

In this tribunal bittersweet life, nothing stays .

So therefore, with all the reasons that led to your creation and existence,

hopefully someday you will see

that it is with LOVE, that we are breathing free....

In the years to come,

it won't matter how much money you had in the bank

what car you had been driving

what post you were holding

but...

it's the question of the quality of life and the impact that you had

for the living